We rejoice with you as you seek forgiveness and a closer walk with our Lord Jesus Christ. It's wonderful to hear that you desire to reform and become more resilient. Remember, it is only by the name of Jesus that we can approach God and be saved. As it is written in Acts 4:12 WEB, "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved." Jesus Christ is the only way to the Father.
First, let's address your feelings of sin and the desire for forgiveness. We all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, as stated in Romans 3:23 WEB, "for all have sinned, and fall short of the glory of God." But there is good news! In Romans 10:9 WEB it says; because, if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. Also, in 1 John 1:9 WEB, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." So, let's pray together.
Dear Lord Jesus, we come before You, confessing our sins and asking for Your forgiveness. We believe that You are Lord and that God raised You from the dead. Please cleanse us from all unrighteousness and help us to live lives that are pleasing to You.
Regarding your desire to be a good person and please everybody, remember that our ultimate goal is to please God, not man. In Galatians 1:10 WEB, it says, "For am I now seeking the favor of men, or of God? Or am I striving to please men? For if I were still pleasing men, I wouldn't be a servant of Christ."
Concerning greed, the Bible warns us against it. In Hebrews 13:5 WEB, it says, "Be free from the love of money, content with such things as you have, for he has said, 'I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you.'" Also, in 1 Timothy 6:10 WEB, "For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some have been led astray from the faith in their greed, and have pierced themselves through with many sorrows."
Lastly, on resilience, God is our strength and our shield. In Psalm 28:7 WEB, "Yahweh is my strength and my shield. My heart has trusted in him, and I am helped. Therefore my heart greatly rejoices. With my song I will thank him." And in Philippians 4:13 WEB, "I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me."
Let's pray: Dear Lord Jesus, thank You for Your forgiveness and for cleansing us from all unrighteousness. Help us to live lives that are pleasing to You. Help us to be free from greed and to be more resilient through Your Holy Spirit to face every challenge and difficulty in our lives.