Doc Safari
Disciple of Prayer
35 years ago I rejected a woman who was interested in me and I did not like. A few weeks ago, out of the blue, I felt a word of knowledge or something powerful apparently from the Lord that something was going to happen to her current husband in a few months, and I need to be ready because she will want to try to win me again and I should accept her this time. I emphasize I do NOT want to have an affair, commit adultery, or otherwise interrupt their marriage. This "word" was somewhat of an unpleasant shock to me and I've been baffled ever since. Was it God who brought this "prophecy" to me? All I seek is God's will in this and an end to my not knowing for sure if this was from Him or not. Whatever the truth is, I want to do His will. I ask for the wisdom and courage to do His will in this matter.
During a long prayer session, I began to think about this in-depth.
This "premonition" has happened before, but not to the degree of intensity or detail as this most recent event. Previous "premonitions" about this were simply to predict I would be with that woman one day.
Here's the interesting part: it took me hours of prayer and meditation to think about other times this has happened, and it occurred to me that every time this "premonition" I would someday be with this woman has occurred, it has been a few months before I met someone else I could go out with.
To keep it short, I'll just discuss one: in 2012 I had a premonition I would be with that woman someday, and a few months later in 2013 I met and started dating a Christian woman who is still my girlfriend 5 years later. My relationship with her, however, has remained platonic and we kind of both know it isn't going anywhere toward marriage any time soon.
My point is, I think I've narrowed this situation down to two possibilities:
1. The Holy Spirit is using this to comfort and reassure me that I have a destiny to be with this woman, and it's the Father's will for us to get together no matter how many other women I date. As part of this He is indicating that we will soon be together.
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2. Satan is using this to "spam" me and potentially steer me away from another Godly woman that I should meet in a few months, or tempt me to sin by contacting this woman from my past and try to start an affair with her (which WILL NOT HAPPEN as long as the Holy Spirit guides me).
Once again, I want to do God's will and I earnestly desire to know if it's the Holy Spirit or the Devil sending me these premonitions. I have heard the voice of God in the past, but this particular situation is somewhat different. It's like a burst of knowing comes over me and I just know something, not like an audible "still small voice" instructing me. It's more like a vision without a picture to go with it.
I have had anxiety over this situation, not wanting to even entertain the thought of initiating any contact with this woman, for obvious reasons I think. There is no reason for me to interrupt her life whatsoever without knowing that it is God's will. In fact, I posted prayer requests about this on several sites, asking that God strongly put it on her heart to contact me if her marital circumstances change. That way I do not interrupt her life. The Holy Spirit has assured me that I do not need to do anything; that God will take care of it, and that I need not worry about not taking an active role.
So the only question remains: Does God intend to bring us together after all these years? Or is it Satan sending a temptation to sin? God's assurance indicates that he might not want me to have all the information right now. Either that or I'm just overly cautious and can't accept the fact that He intends a miraculous reunion for us.
AT ANY RATE: I SEEK AN UNDENIABLE FAITH TO FOLLOW GOD'S WILL, AND TO KNOW THE TRUTH ABOUT THIS ONCE AND FOR ALL.
I thank you and praise God for you prayer partners agreeing with me on this difficult thing.
I only want to follow the leading of the Holy Spirit and do God's will in this because I know he would never lead me into an evil situation. Please keep praying for the truth of this to be clear to me. Based on my two bullet points above, I believe that I know now that whatever the outcome of this, it is occurring because God wants me to meet another Christian woman in a few months, and I think she will turn out to be the love of my life.
The only remaining question is whether it is the woman I rejected 35 years ago, or someone else. The answer to that question is critical to my making the right choice.
I praise and thank God for you all. Peace!
During a long prayer session, I began to think about this in-depth.
This "premonition" has happened before, but not to the degree of intensity or detail as this most recent event. Previous "premonitions" about this were simply to predict I would be with that woman one day.
Here's the interesting part: it took me hours of prayer and meditation to think about other times this has happened, and it occurred to me that every time this "premonition" I would someday be with this woman has occurred, it has been a few months before I met someone else I could go out with.
To keep it short, I'll just discuss one: in 2012 I had a premonition I would be with that woman someday, and a few months later in 2013 I met and started dating a Christian woman who is still my girlfriend 5 years later. My relationship with her, however, has remained platonic and we kind of both know it isn't going anywhere toward marriage any time soon.
My point is, I think I've narrowed this situation down to two possibilities:
1. The Holy Spirit is using this to comfort and reassure me that I have a destiny to be with this woman, and it's the Father's will for us to get together no matter how many other women I date. As part of this He is indicating that we will soon be together.
OR
2. Satan is using this to "spam" me and potentially steer me away from another Godly woman that I should meet in a few months, or tempt me to sin by contacting this woman from my past and try to start an affair with her (which WILL NOT HAPPEN as long as the Holy Spirit guides me).
Once again, I want to do God's will and I earnestly desire to know if it's the Holy Spirit or the Devil sending me these premonitions. I have heard the voice of God in the past, but this particular situation is somewhat different. It's like a burst of knowing comes over me and I just know something, not like an audible "still small voice" instructing me. It's more like a vision without a picture to go with it.
I have had anxiety over this situation, not wanting to even entertain the thought of initiating any contact with this woman, for obvious reasons I think. There is no reason for me to interrupt her life whatsoever without knowing that it is God's will. In fact, I posted prayer requests about this on several sites, asking that God strongly put it on her heart to contact me if her marital circumstances change. That way I do not interrupt her life. The Holy Spirit has assured me that I do not need to do anything; that God will take care of it, and that I need not worry about not taking an active role.
So the only question remains: Does God intend to bring us together after all these years? Or is it Satan sending a temptation to sin? God's assurance indicates that he might not want me to have all the information right now. Either that or I'm just overly cautious and can't accept the fact that He intends a miraculous reunion for us.
AT ANY RATE: I SEEK AN UNDENIABLE FAITH TO FOLLOW GOD'S WILL, AND TO KNOW THE TRUTH ABOUT THIS ONCE AND FOR ALL.
I thank you and praise God for you prayer partners agreeing with me on this difficult thing.
I only want to follow the leading of the Holy Spirit and do God's will in this because I know he would never lead me into an evil situation. Please keep praying for the truth of this to be clear to me. Based on my two bullet points above, I believe that I know now that whatever the outcome of this, it is occurring because God wants me to meet another Christian woman in a few months, and I think she will turn out to be the love of my life.
The only remaining question is whether it is the woman I rejected 35 years ago, or someone else. The answer to that question is critical to my making the right choice.
I praise and thank God for you all. Peace!