Just want to say, I do care. Do you remember the anonymous post about being severely traumatized and shunned and rejected by other christians, and feeling so alone? That was me. I remember you commenting on that post, saying you could relate and that it made you feel less alone. So hereby I wanted to say it back to you: I relate. I do know God loves you very much. It's His very nature. But I can understand it's hard to see that when all you see and feel is suffering. Just know you're not alone, even thought it's through the internet, there are people online here that definitely care. God bless