I have never been the perfect person in my lifetime. I recently had lost all my friends due to being in a relationship with a narcissist and endured the abuse a few months ago. I am currently all alone and have been alone with no one to call or talk to for support with everyone currently looking down upon me since the narcissist started a very sinister smear campaign towards me to all the people I cared about. I am unable to even get into another relationship because of trust issues. So I have turned to alcoholism and deciding if life is still worth living. I just want help and some emotional support from someone. Please God help me! I’m deeply sorry for all the past mistakes I had made.