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I standing and praying for you.I'm loosing my faith because God hasn't come to my resque in any way in my horrible disease. My entire life has been destroyed and doctors haven't been able to do anything. Everyone just says that you have to praise God even when he destroyes you and I don't want to. I don't love God and and I am incredibly hurt. To the extent where I only want to wash my hands of God. I don't want to praise God who is willing to sacrifice my entire wellbeing, my entire earthly life for nothing, for some higher purposes which I'll never be made aware of and without this ever benefiting me in any way, without me receiving any compensation for my life. Why is my life worth nothing? And he has abandoned me spiritually. I used to hear God's spirit daily, now he has left me and I am being tormented by an evil spirit who has tried to deceive me into following it. And I've followed it before realising it wasn't God. But it won't leave me alone but bullies me every day. Bible claims that believers can drive away evil spirits, why doesn't it work for me? It instead mocks me when I try to do that and mocks me that I don't succeed. Why doesn't anything that the Bible claims happen tl be true for me? What salvation? What resque? If God doesn't save me or resque me, do I still have to continue in believing that he does it? My life has come to a point where I know I won't recover here on earth. I know I will not recover and hate God. He hates my life and has taken everything from me. God HATES my life and torments and persecutes me in every way. Why I am not worth the same as other believers? Why do I get to see and hear how God gives so much better life to everyone else, every believer I know has a better life than I do. I feel contempt towards the Bible. I really believed in it for over two decades but cannot help feeling now that the whole book is childish, ridiculous and impossible. I try to pray that God would forgive me for losing faith and failing in a test but I can't bring myself to do it, since I am so angry and and cannlt believe anymore. I know my feelings of disbelief stem from my insane anger and diasppointment. But if reality has proven that God DOESN'T help and he doesn't revive me, why should I cling on to faith that he does? He simply doesn't help me. He has rejected my every request. Why should I believe that he resques and helps and delivers when he is clearly purposefully destroying me and has abandoned. People say that God doesn't abandon anylne. Well what has he done then? No one can point out a single resque effort having taken place in my life. I hate him for having thrown my soul into an abyss without heeding to anything I say. I dln't know what I'm rambling. Thank you kf you've gotten so far and thank you if you want to pray that God would slmehow help me. I don't want to go to hell but I'm so angry and disappointed I don't even want to pray for help in believing.