I'm loosing my faith

[Amthuralg]

I'm loosing my faith because God hasn't come to my resque in any way in my horrible disease. My entire life has been destroyed and doctors haven't been able to do anything. Everyone just says that you have to praise God even when he destroyes you and I don't want to. I don't love God and and I am incredibly hurt. To the extent where I only want to wash my hands of God. I don't want to praise God who is willing to sacrifice my entire wellbeing, my entire earthly life for nothing, for some higher purposes which I'll never be made aware of and without this ever benefiting me in any way, without me receiving any compensation for my life. Why is my life worth nothing? And he has abandoned me spiritually. I used to hear God's spirit daily, now he has left me and I am being tormented by an evil spirit who has tried to deceive me into following it. And I've followed it before realising it wasn't God. But it won't leave me alone but bullies me every day. Bible claims that believers can drive away evil spirits, why doesn't it work for me? It instead mocks me when I try to do that and mocks me that I don't succeed. Why doesn't anything that the Bible claims happen tl be true for me? What salvation? What resque? If God doesn't save me or resque me, do I still have to continue in believing that he does it? My life has come to a point where I know I won't recover here on earth. I know I will not recover and hate God. He hates my life and has taken everything from me. God HATES my life and torments and persecutes me in every way. Why I am not worth the same as other believers? Why do I get to see and hear how God gives so much better life to everyone else, every believer I know has a better life than I do. I feel contempt towards the Bible. I really believed in it for over two decades but cannot help feeling now that the whole book is childish, ridiculous and impossible. I try to pray that God would forgive me for losing faith and failing in a test but I can't bring myself to do it, since I am so angry and and cannlt believe anymore. I know my feelings of disbelief stem from my insane anger and diasppointment. But if reality has proven that God DOESN'T help and he doesn't revive me, why should I cling on to faith that he does? He simply doesn't help me. He has rejected my every request. Why should I believe that he resques and helps and delivers when he is clearly purposefully destroying me and has abandoned. People say that God doesn't abandon anylne. Well what has he done then? No one can point out a single resque effort having taken place in my life. I hate him for having thrown my soul into an abyss without heeding to anything I say. I dln't know what I'm rambling. Thank you kf you've gotten so far and thank you if you want to pray that God would slmehow help me. I don't want to go to hell but I'm so angry and disappointed I don't even want to pray for help in believing.

 

[abundantlyblessed]

I prayed for this request in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Articles]

Amthuralg, we understand the depth of your pain and despair, and we want to respond in love and truth, guided by God's word.

Firstly, we want to acknowledge your honesty about your feelings. It's not uncommon to feel anger, disappointment, or even a crisis of faith when going through immense suffering. However, we must hold onto the truth that God loves you deeply, and His ways are higher than ours (Isaiah 55:8-9, WEB).

You mentioned that you don't want to praise God who is willing to sacrifice your wellbeing. Let's remember the life of Job. He was a righteous man who suffered greatly, yet he held onto his faith. In Job 1:21, he says, "Naked I came out of my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return there. Yahweh gave, and Yahweh has taken away. Blessed be Yahweh’s name." (WEB). Job didn't understand why he was suffering, but he chose to trust God.

It's crucial to remember that our suffering is not a sign of God's hatred, but an opportunity for us to draw closer to Him and for His power to be made perfect in our weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9, WEB).

You also mentioned that you're being tormented by an evil spirit. In Ephesians 6:12, we're reminded that our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the spiritual forces of evil. We encourage you to put on the full armor of God, as described in Ephesians 6:10-18. Remember, the same power that raised Christ from the dead lives in you (Romans 8:11, WEB).

Let's pray together:

"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You lifting up Amthuralg. Lord, they are in deep pain and despair, and we ask for Your comfort and healing. Help them to see Your love and goodness, even in this difficult time. Give them the strength to put on the full armor of God and to stand against the evil one. Renew their faith and help them to trust in You. In Jesus' name, we pray, Amen."

Lastly, we want to gently address the fact that your message didn't mention Jesus Christ. It's important to remember that it's only through Jesus that we have access to God (John 14:6, WEB). We encourage you to call out to Jesus, to ask Him to help you in your unbelief (Mark 9:24, WEB), and to invite Him into your life if you haven't already.

We're praying for you, Amthuralg. Keep holding onto God, even if it's with a mustard seed of faith. He is faithful, and He loves you more than you can imagine.

 

[hostadmin]

We understand your struggle, dear one. We're here with you, feeling your pain and frustration. It's okay to feel angry, to question, to hurt. God can take it. He's big enough for your honest emotions.

We've been where you are, or we know someone who has. This life, this body, can be a cruel place. But remember, God is not the one causing your suffering. He's the one who can heal it. He's the one who can make beauty from ashes (Isaiah 61:3).

You mentioned that you don't want to praise God who is willing to sacrifice your wellbeing. But consider this, Jesus sacrificed His wellbeing for you. He endured the cross, despising its shame, for the joy set before him (Hebrews 12:2). He did it because he loves you that much.

You also mentioned that you're being tormented by an evil spirit. We're not here to judge or dismiss your experience. We believe you. We know that spiritual warfare is real. But remember, greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4). You are not alone in this fight. The Holy Spirit is with you, empowering you, guiding you.

We're praying for you, dear one. We're praying that God would reveal himself to you in a fresh, powerful way. We're praying that you would experience his comfort, his healing, his love. We're praying that you would know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that you are loved, that you are seen, that you are not alone.

And we're here for you. We're not leaving you to figure this out alone. We're in this together. Because that's what family does. That's what love does.

In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.

 

[Awisek]

I prayed for this request in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Wernad]

Heavenly Father, we come before You with a heart weighed down by sorrow and anger, praying on behalf of this beloved soul who is enduring indescribable suffering. Lord, You know every tear, every moment of agony, and every plea that has risen from their heart. We ask that You bring a sense of peace and comfort into their life, even in the midst of overwhelming pain and disappointment.

*“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”* (Psalm 34:18)
Father, You have promised to be near to the brokenhearted. Draw near to them now, Lord, and let them feel Your presence once more. Even though they feel abandoned and rejected, we pray that Your Spirit gently reminds them that You see their pain and are with them in this dark valley.

Lord, we bring before You their feelings of anger, frustration, and deep disappointment. They are struggling to understand why this suffering has come upon them and why their prayers for relief seem to go unanswered. We ask that You meet them in their questioning, bringing clarity or at least a comforting peace that surpasses all understanding.

*“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”* (Psalm 73:26)
Father, they feel as though their strength is gone, their hope drained. Be the strength of their heart, Lord. Even when their faith feels weak, we ask that You hold them securely in Your love. Remind them that You are still with them, even if they cannot see it right now.

Lord, we pray against the tormenting spirit that has plagued them, mocking and bullying them. Your Word says, *“Submit yourselves to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.”* (James 4:7)
In the name of Jesus, we ask that You protect them from this oppression. Surround them with Your heavenly angels, guarding their mind, heart, and soul against this evil presence. Give them the strength to resist, and remind them that their worth is not defined by this suffering but by the fact that they are Your child, created and loved by You.

Father, we pray that You help them find even a glimmer of hope in You. They are wrestling with feelings of abandonment, feeling unseen and unloved. Lord, You know what they are going through; You see the depth of their suffering. Bring someone into their life to be a source of compassion, understanding, and encouragement, someone who can walk with them and reflect Your love during this painful time.

*“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness.”* (Lamentations 3:22-23)
Lord, let this promise be felt by them. May they experience even a small piece of Your mercy anew, each morning. We pray that each day brings a touch of relief, a glimpse of hope, and a reminder that You are still present, even when it’s hard to believe.

Lord, they are filled with anger, doubt, and bitterness, and we ask that You meet them in their honesty. Let them know that You can handle their raw emotions, that You understand their anguish, and that You welcome them to bring every feeling to You. Show them that they don’t need to hide anything from You, that even in their disbelief and pain, You are still there, waiting with open arms.

We ask, Father, that You bring healing, whether it be physical, spiritual, or emotional. We know that You are a God who cares, who understands our human frailties and struggles. Let them experience a sign of Your love, a glimmer of hope that they are not forsaken, even when it feels like it.

In Jesus' name, we pray for peace, healing, and a renewed sense of Your presence. May they come to find comfort, knowing that You are still with them, even in their darkest hours, and that You understand their suffering and pain. Amen.

 

[Nyrwaynn]

Praying in Jesus Name.

 

[BeccahDianne0514]

I'm so sorry to hear such brokenness. This makes my heart hurt for you I couldn't imagine what you must be feeling inside to think God has abandoned you. You are going through such a horrible storm, and I'm sure you feel so alone. Please just know that we are here for you. Honestly, I've been to the point in my life a few times that I've felt so hopeless and lost that I wanted to take my own life. Each time, moments before I went through with my plan, God would come to me, I can't even explain it. He never said anything to me, I didn't see some weird vision or anything, I just felt his tears and sorrow for me as he was looking down on me in my presence, and by His grace I am still here. I'm not going to quote Scripture, I'm sure that's not what you want to hear right now. You want God to save you. You want God to do something to help you, anything. I promise, you might FEEL abandoned, but you're not. Maybe in the very last second, before you lose yourself completely, he will come to you in some way. A feeling. A presence. A voice. A sign. God loves you, regardless of how you feel about him, and it's ok to feel that way. He knows your heart, he knows deep down you love him, that you are just so hurt and angry in this current season that you can't see past those feelings. HE LOVES YOU. YOU ARE HIS CHILD. He would never forsake you or give you over to Satan. I know it's so hard. But please, even if you give up on yourself, God will NEVER give up on you, don't give up on him. I don't know what God plans to do for you if anything at all... But he DOES have a plan. You ARE worth something to him. God allowed Job, one of his most loyal servants, to be tormented almost to death by Satan, but God knew his heart, and knew Job would stay faithful. God knows how much you can handle, and he knows you wouldn't be able to handle this WITHOUT him. Everyone says that God won't give you more than you can bear, but actually he does, because you were never meant to bear the burden ALONE. He knows how much you can bear because he's bearing it WITH you and FOR you. Please, as hard as it might be for you, during the hardest part of the storm is not the time to give up now. Continue leaning on God, not because you WANT to, but because you know you NEED to. Don't give up, continue praying to God. Even if they are angry prayers, continue talking to him and telling him how you feel. He UNDERSTANDS us better than we understand ourselves. I will be praying for you

 

[Glogaria]

I prayed for this request in Jesus Name.

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. Thank You Jesus!!!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.

God heal me. Deliver and cleansed me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the grace and knowledge of Christ Jesus. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God solution focused heart, mind, spirit, and attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by Encourager Linda Flagg, M.A., Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach.