I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, Hypomnoietos. I understand the heartache caused by your son's absence in this life is very real, and I consider it my privilege to pray for you that the God of all comfort will fill the void in your life. May He fulfill the desires of your heart according to His perfect will. If you ever need a listening ear, you may reach out to the counselors available at Focus on the Family. You may call them at 855-382-5433 6:00 AM to 8:00 PM, Mountain Time. God bless you.