bronson38
Beloved of All
I am praying with all my strength Lord for you to please let me not give up on everything I have been trying to do. I feel like a failure because I really want to just give up. My enemies are getting the best of me. I need you to help me stay focused and keep going forward. I cannot do this alone. There are tons of things and people creeping back into my life and are ruining it. It's very uncontrollable and things are getting way out of hand here. One person has already destroyed something I cannot undo and I helped her in the past so many times. Lord please help her to not get more involved in my life and let her live her own and keep me out of hers. That's only one of the problems. Help me find solutions to the rest of them and put everything that's in my past to rest now. Enough is enough; I no longer can carry anymore burdens. I hand everything over to you now. Help and guide me on a new path and let this one go and lock the doors that need to be locked. Open the new doors you have for me. You only know what needs to be done to stop my enemies once and for all. I do pray for peace for them and myself as well. I do not wish harm but I just want them to see what they have and are doing to my life. I also pray for forgiveness and forgive my enemies. I pray for peace, protection, and security. I just want to live the life you have blessed me with without all this chaos and drama. Lord please help me. I also am praying to find someone to love me and to want to have a life with me. Lord bring me the man I am meant to be with. If it is your will, let my old relationship be rebuilt all over again. I do not know what it is I am supposed to do or whom I am supposed to be with, but I know you know. I am just lost and confused about what it is you want for my life in general. I am so ready to live my life but at the same time, it's a tug of war: should I really give up and let myself die or continue living in pain, suffering, and struggling more and more because my soul is already half dead and the life is being sucked right out of me slowly. I feel this is just torture here. Please Lord, give me signs to know whether to live or die. I am just about done. I do not even know what it's like to have a normal life and live with a man that treats me well. I don't know what fun is or happiness and joy, peace, you name it; I am living in hell right now and I'd say about 18 years now. Come on Father, please bless me soon and answer my prayers or let me come home. Amen.

