Elizabeth F
Humble Servant of All
Please forgive me for posting so much but I am in despair and am so grateful for your company, love,wise counsel and prayers.
As you know I have been crying out to God, through Jesus,for many years pleading for healing. The physical pain is unbearable but the mental pain is even worse and is getting LP impossible to live with. I so wish I could explain it to you but it isn't just anxiety but torment 24/7 with not one second of peace.
I plead with God to make it stop but there is silence.
I find silence particularly hard to bear as my mother used to punish me and my sister by not speaking to us for weeks on end and we had to say sorry before she would speak to us again even though we had done nothing wrong.
Also our earthly father was silent even though he lived with us. We were never told we were loved.
So,for me, silence means punishment or lack of love.
I can identify with the psalmist David when he cried out"To you Yaweh I call. My rock , don't be deaf to me lest if you are silent I will become like those who go down into the pit" Psalm 28 V 1 (WEB)
I am tired of crying and so long to laugh again!
Oh Father God I come to you confessing my doubts and fears as I struggle with your silence and unanswered prayers. Please reassure me that this is not punishment or lack of love as the bible tells me you love me so much but oh I long to feel loved by you. To feel your arms around me and tell me you will make everything alright and life will be worth living again. I am so desperately unhappy and don't want to live shackled to the past but to be set free and enjoy a wonderful new beginning with my sister Margaret who I thank you for.
I pray that you will reveal yourself to me, Margaret and everyone on this forum who is struggling and also had/have difficult relationships with earthly parents as our Abba Father.
I thank you that you loved us so much you sent your beloved son Jesus to shed his precious blood and by whose stripes we are healed. It is in His precious name I ask for your mercy, healing and blessings. Amen
As you know I have been crying out to God, through Jesus,for many years pleading for healing. The physical pain is unbearable but the mental pain is even worse and is getting LP impossible to live with. I so wish I could explain it to you but it isn't just anxiety but torment 24/7 with not one second of peace.
I plead with God to make it stop but there is silence.
I find silence particularly hard to bear as my mother used to punish me and my sister by not speaking to us for weeks on end and we had to say sorry before she would speak to us again even though we had done nothing wrong.
Also our earthly father was silent even though he lived with us. We were never told we were loved.
So,for me, silence means punishment or lack of love.
I can identify with the psalmist David when he cried out"To you Yaweh I call. My rock , don't be deaf to me lest if you are silent I will become like those who go down into the pit" Psalm 28 V 1 (WEB)
I am tired of crying and so long to laugh again!
Oh Father God I come to you confessing my doubts and fears as I struggle with your silence and unanswered prayers. Please reassure me that this is not punishment or lack of love as the bible tells me you love me so much but oh I long to feel loved by you. To feel your arms around me and tell me you will make everything alright and life will be worth living again. I am so desperately unhappy and don't want to live shackled to the past but to be set free and enjoy a wonderful new beginning with my sister Margaret who I thank you for.
I pray that you will reveal yourself to me, Margaret and everyone on this forum who is struggling and also had/have difficult relationships with earthly parents as our Abba Father.
I thank you that you loved us so much you sent your beloved son Jesus to shed his precious blood and by whose stripes we are healed. It is in His precious name I ask for your mercy, healing and blessings. Amen