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stephaniesinns
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do not even know where to begin... i will give a few stories about my life... i need strength, guidance and wisdom...
in 1997 my sister had me and my daughter live with her and her friend while i was pregnant with my second child... i tried to leave because they forced me and my children to sleep in a room where their dog urinated all over everything including the bed as well as having feces in the same areas... i was constantly cleaning it up... they each had children as well... my sisters friends daughter was about 10 and my niece was about 3... they left me babysitting those children as well as keeping up with my children, one being sick and having to stay in a biliruben light... he was only a few days old... i lived disgusted and no clue how to get out... the 9 year old was raped constantly by her step father... and my sister was on drugs so bad that her daughter never saw her... i was on government assistance and they took all my money the month my baby was born... they filled their cabinets and deep freezer and fridge with food as well as used my money to re-carpet their living-room... i was talking to a friend and asking him what i should do because they threatened to take my kids away... he later called the house and told my sister that he was from the sheriffs office and that he heard they were holding me hostage and they had to let me go... so they forced me into the car with my kids and took me where they worked at... they then called the cops and said i was living on the streets with the kids and had no money or food to take care of them... the cops would not listen when i told them i was at their house and they took my kids because i was crying and upset that my sister would do that to me... the cop told me when he put them into the car that i would never see them again... that they were already adopted...i didn't get my first visit until my son was almost a year old... i was young and stupid and thought the court appointed lawyer would help me but he didn't... i lost my rights and they were adopted in 1999... my last visit being November 3rd... it was supposed to be an open adoption so that the kids could get letters from me on holidays and birthdays and that we could exchange pictures... as soon as the paperwork was finalized, they canceled that and refused to allow the children to have any contact... i had 2 more sons during the struggle for custody and those 2 children are still in my care...
in 2000 i was in an physically abusive situation and when i finally got the man out of my life after he had stolen all our money and our utilities were shut off... i ran for help from my grandfather to get some money to get them back on but in the time i was gone, which was a few days, my ex had broken in and ransacked my home and was vicious enough to put shrimp and fish into the freezer to stink up my house... when i got back and saw what he had done, i asked a friend if my two sons and i could stay until i could get the house in order and utilities back on since i had the money to do that... by the time i went back to my house the next day to get started on cleaning, there was a note on the door from a social worker saying that my ex had made a report and they needed to talk to me... i packed up all the belongings i could fit into a few bags and totes to fit on a bus and me and the boys moved to Indiana...
i lived there for 2000-2002 and during which time, i had a son...
in 2002 i moved to Georgia with my 3 children from Indiana...
in 2003 i had another son...
in 2004 my son went to visit his father in Indiana... while he was visiting there, someone lied and told social services that i was putting drugs into my baby's bottle... so social services came and took a diaper sample and took the kids until the results were in... i did not think it was a big deal, that they would be home in a few days... it turned into a fight that lasted about a year and i got my children back... the state always said in court that the results weren't in every time we went... i gave birth during the fight and they took the baby from me at the hospital... i wasn't even allowed to carry the baby to my room, i had to be supervised by security in the nursery every time i went there to nurse him... when i was released, he stayed a few more days, during which time, i was going to the hospital every few hours to nurse him... finally the judge gave me back the newborn and later, after i did research and proved that the state was having me do things and then not holding up their end to allow me to resources to complete what they asked of me, they gave me my other 3 children in foster care and told the state to leave me alone and close the case in 2 weeks...but during that time, my ex in Indiana was granted temporary emergency custody... which they never even gave me a phone conference court hearing or involved me in any way, and they filed in Indiana which was illegal since my son had lived here in Georgia over 18 months, the hearing should have been held here...
in 2005 my mother passed away from breast cancer and she was all the family i had... i then gave my youngest two sons up for adoption to a friend that had been trying but could not have children of her own, who stated she would allow me to see them one weekend a month and allow me to be a part of their life since she was adopted and knew the importance of having the birth parents around... so i believed her... she refused me to have any visitation or even be around the children in any way so i did not show up to the adoption hearing... there was no need to... they had been living with her for a while and i did not want to disrupt their lives... she had a good family... she was cruel and has a hatred for me for giving her the most precious gift any mother could give, something that hurt me deeply to do because i wanted what was best for my kids and i knew i couldn't tend to 5 kids on my own and the babies would adapt better to changing homes and they needed a 2 parent home and a loving family that could also take care of them financially... to this day she tells me i am a horrible mother and that i should have came to court to take them back... not understanding the sacrifice i made... i willing let my kids go but i refused to sign any papers to show that i agreed with just walking out of their lives entirely, i did not... i wanted to be there...
in2007 i started getting harassing letters about my son in Indiana, saying how awful i am and how they adopted him and they were married and how they tell my son what an evil person i am and put nasty things up on MySpace about me... they slander me to even my son... they refused me having any calls and refused to give me any addresses so i can write him... they cut me and my other sons out of every single picture that he was in, they cut us out of his life completely... i still have rights... his step mom has third party custody and my rights were not terminated... over time i have gotten message after message how my son is being abused and how his step mom is very unstable... she wants him for his money since he is disabled... it breaks my heart and if i had a lawyer i would get him home... i have no doubt about that... i have no way to get a lawyer to help across state lines... it really hurts my heart and breaks my faith hearing all this...
on a positive note... my oldest two children are speaking to me now... and i get to meet my daughter soon... she is coming for a visit... i just really want my family back... i really want to be in their lives...
in 2011 i married to a man who has been my best friend since 1998... long time... =
= we have been in the same home since 2005...
in 1997 my sister had me and my daughter live with her and her friend while i was pregnant with my second child... i tried to leave because they forced me and my children to sleep in a room where their dog urinated all over everything including the bed as well as having feces in the same areas... i was constantly cleaning it up... they each had children as well... my sisters friends daughter was about 10 and my niece was about 3... they left me babysitting those children as well as keeping up with my children, one being sick and having to stay in a biliruben light... he was only a few days old... i lived disgusted and no clue how to get out... the 9 year old was raped constantly by her step father... and my sister was on drugs so bad that her daughter never saw her... i was on government assistance and they took all my money the month my baby was born... they filled their cabinets and deep freezer and fridge with food as well as used my money to re-carpet their living-room... i was talking to a friend and asking him what i should do because they threatened to take my kids away... he later called the house and told my sister that he was from the sheriffs office and that he heard they were holding me hostage and they had to let me go... so they forced me into the car with my kids and took me where they worked at... they then called the cops and said i was living on the streets with the kids and had no money or food to take care of them... the cops would not listen when i told them i was at their house and they took my kids because i was crying and upset that my sister would do that to me... the cop told me when he put them into the car that i would never see them again... that they were already adopted...i didn't get my first visit until my son was almost a year old... i was young and stupid and thought the court appointed lawyer would help me but he didn't... i lost my rights and they were adopted in 1999... my last visit being November 3rd... it was supposed to be an open adoption so that the kids could get letters from me on holidays and birthdays and that we could exchange pictures... as soon as the paperwork was finalized, they canceled that and refused to allow the children to have any contact... i had 2 more sons during the struggle for custody and those 2 children are still in my care...
in 2000 i was in an physically abusive situation and when i finally got the man out of my life after he had stolen all our money and our utilities were shut off... i ran for help from my grandfather to get some money to get them back on but in the time i was gone, which was a few days, my ex had broken in and ransacked my home and was vicious enough to put shrimp and fish into the freezer to stink up my house... when i got back and saw what he had done, i asked a friend if my two sons and i could stay until i could get the house in order and utilities back on since i had the money to do that... by the time i went back to my house the next day to get started on cleaning, there was a note on the door from a social worker saying that my ex had made a report and they needed to talk to me... i packed up all the belongings i could fit into a few bags and totes to fit on a bus and me and the boys moved to Indiana...
i lived there for 2000-2002 and during which time, i had a son...
in 2002 i moved to Georgia with my 3 children from Indiana...
in 2003 i had another son...
in 2004 my son went to visit his father in Indiana... while he was visiting there, someone lied and told social services that i was putting drugs into my baby's bottle... so social services came and took a diaper sample and took the kids until the results were in... i did not think it was a big deal, that they would be home in a few days... it turned into a fight that lasted about a year and i got my children back... the state always said in court that the results weren't in every time we went... i gave birth during the fight and they took the baby from me at the hospital... i wasn't even allowed to carry the baby to my room, i had to be supervised by security in the nursery every time i went there to nurse him... when i was released, he stayed a few more days, during which time, i was going to the hospital every few hours to nurse him... finally the judge gave me back the newborn and later, after i did research and proved that the state was having me do things and then not holding up their end to allow me to resources to complete what they asked of me, they gave me my other 3 children in foster care and told the state to leave me alone and close the case in 2 weeks...but during that time, my ex in Indiana was granted temporary emergency custody... which they never even gave me a phone conference court hearing or involved me in any way, and they filed in Indiana which was illegal since my son had lived here in Georgia over 18 months, the hearing should have been held here...
in 2005 my mother passed away from breast cancer and she was all the family i had... i then gave my youngest two sons up for adoption to a friend that had been trying but could not have children of her own, who stated she would allow me to see them one weekend a month and allow me to be a part of their life since she was adopted and knew the importance of having the birth parents around... so i believed her... she refused me to have any visitation or even be around the children in any way so i did not show up to the adoption hearing... there was no need to... they had been living with her for a while and i did not want to disrupt their lives... she had a good family... she was cruel and has a hatred for me for giving her the most precious gift any mother could give, something that hurt me deeply to do because i wanted what was best for my kids and i knew i couldn't tend to 5 kids on my own and the babies would adapt better to changing homes and they needed a 2 parent home and a loving family that could also take care of them financially... to this day she tells me i am a horrible mother and that i should have came to court to take them back... not understanding the sacrifice i made... i willing let my kids go but i refused to sign any papers to show that i agreed with just walking out of their lives entirely, i did not... i wanted to be there...
in2007 i started getting harassing letters about my son in Indiana, saying how awful i am and how they adopted him and they were married and how they tell my son what an evil person i am and put nasty things up on MySpace about me... they slander me to even my son... they refused me having any calls and refused to give me any addresses so i can write him... they cut me and my other sons out of every single picture that he was in, they cut us out of his life completely... i still have rights... his step mom has third party custody and my rights were not terminated... over time i have gotten message after message how my son is being abused and how his step mom is very unstable... she wants him for his money since he is disabled... it breaks my heart and if i had a lawyer i would get him home... i have no doubt about that... i have no way to get a lawyer to help across state lines... it really hurts my heart and breaks my faith hearing all this...
on a positive note... my oldest two children are speaking to me now... and i get to meet my daughter soon... she is coming for a visit... i just really want my family back... i really want to be in their lives...
in 2011 i married to a man who has been my best friend since 1998... long time... =
