How do I recover or become strong when their is so much hurt and pain?
One thing i would say, nothing anyone can do to restore what had happened in your life . That's my belief that God given a choice for everyone to do good vs bad. We see many tragic happen in many lives. We do hear someone get raped , tortured and we always say where is God. God knows everything and if he wants to , he can make us like robots who only do good . We probably may not call it as life and you wont appreciate it too . I dont exactly have the formula to fetch you out of pain but i know if we pray to God ,he will bring peace and can give you strength to come out of it . There are many things you can do and serve other people and make their life happier . Their is much joy when you help people . The joy which it can bring can overcome all the pain you have. But that will take time and you need to move forward step by step .