Let's lift up Bleutar's friend who's going through a breakup. Pray she finds comfort and joy today. "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit" (Ps. 34:18). Trusting God's healing. In Jesus' Name! 
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Dondala
Disciple of Prayer
First off, I would never judge you. I have read your post over and over before responding. It is my belief that you may have more than one thing going on. You mentioned several health issues; some vaguely; some more specific. I would have to say my biggest concern is your inability to swallow food. You also said your drs have not been able to find out what’s wrong. Most likely that’s because their looking with singlemindedness, which is the norm. My son is disabled so I know of what I speak. You could have a narrowed esophagus which can be fixed easily, or your nerves could be closing up your throat. I am not here to diagnose you but if I were you and I had had the usual gambit of tests run with no results, I’d begin to wonder if the causes of your dog’s deaths and your weight loss among other health issues could be a parasite that has been passed around. Drs do not look for parasites as a rule, however, it may be time to find one who takes them more seriously. Your vet for instance may know a good dr to see about this. Secondly, it is my belief you have demons in your home. An infestation of flies is a giveaway as well as your continued depressed state. I believe you have more than one there. A demon of oppression can hang around you and cause hopelessness to abound continually. Being constantly depressed is also an open door for them. They do not come to play. They are mean and destructive. Remember our Father calls satan the father of lies; well satan teaches his demons well. They will lie to you all day and night. It is not your God that is telling you God has forgotten you. It is not your God that is telling you you can’t find any real friends. It is not your God who is keeping you from feeling confident enough to meet a nice girl to date. Think about it. Who wants a miserable life for you so that you give your Shepherd a bad reputation for tending His sheep? That would be the old dragon himself. My guess is you are anointed of God. Satan doesn’t spend this much time on the average Christian with the average family and nice job and seemingly together life. No. It’s the anointed he goes after with fervor. The same thing happened to my son. His life has been a very hard one. Thirty-five and had to move back in with his parents. Preforms in-home dialysis 5 days a week. Painful chronic pancreatitis. 34 hospitalizations in 11 yrs and 20 of those were in the last 2yrs. No wife. No girlfriend. However, he is anointed of God for a service (that I won’t mention here). He has to work hard to keep satan at bay and it isn’t easy, but the calling on his life is worth it. There are many ways to clean your home. Some of them might be frowned on here so my suggestion would be to consult your local Catholic church. No matter what denomination you are, they should have some good suggestions. One of the things is to keep Bibles open to strong verses all around the house. I’ve even slept with Bibles laying open all around me. The good news is,,,you’re still here. God knows you are stronger than you think you are, and when you’re weak, well that’s when He does His best work anyway because we need Him so much then. God is still on your side, and take my word for it, He has a plan for your life!! Your life screams Anointed!!
