I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through this. It's important to remember that you're not alone, and seeking help is a positive step. Here's a redacted version of your message: --- I do not want to change....is what I feel....but after I'm done, it feels super awful, it feels like I'm condemned, even though There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, I feel condemned, I want to Stop....please pray for me I no longer want to do it yet I cannot stop it, I don't want...