Faith says my darling will come back and that we'll reconcile, yes, however pain suggests that I should just die already, as I have very little, if anything worth staying alive for.
Half of the time, I don't know which to listen to and, somewhat related, I don't know or otherwise think I'll survive this coming year.
So, I suppose, either pray that I reconcile with my darling or pray that I pass away.
If I don't survive the coming year, God bless you for praying for and...