Personal_Legend44
Disciple of Prayer
Within two years so many things have changed around me in a bad way - father died, business fell apart and now I just found out my best friend who is like a sister is moving away for a job. I am terrified of not having a great support structure when I already have been through so much and my own mother is struggling so I have to be strong for her.
My prayer is that things will start suddenly to change in a POSITIVE way for me - that loss after loss will now be replaced with gaining amazing new things and people into my life. If I have to lose my best friend who i see almost every day, can I finally have my husband and family that I so deeply desire? Can I meet new amazing friends and find a career that fills me as much as my business once did? Can I have money to travel to see my friend? I have become too familiar with the feeling of being left behind or of losing people I love...please let me remember what it feels like to have something wonderful happening to me in life and not just to those around me. I am happy for them, but I am not a martyr. I am a good person and I know I deserve for me life to turn around and to have good things happen to me too. I sit at night and try to remember what bliss feels like, what excitement feels like, what contentment feels like. I miss having a guy - I have become great at being independent but I feel like I have been single again for so long that I have stopped growing. I pray to God and the universe for me to meet my husband and for me to know he is a good match for me. I pray I feel lucky every day to be with him and that at least some of the this pain has been worth the wait.
Please pray that good things, positive things, start to come my way soon...
My prayer is that things will start suddenly to change in a POSITIVE way for me - that loss after loss will now be replaced with gaining amazing new things and people into my life. If I have to lose my best friend who i see almost every day, can I finally have my husband and family that I so deeply desire? Can I meet new amazing friends and find a career that fills me as much as my business once did? Can I have money to travel to see my friend? I have become too familiar with the feeling of being left behind or of losing people I love...please let me remember what it feels like to have something wonderful happening to me in life and not just to those around me. I am happy for them, but I am not a martyr. I am a good person and I know I deserve for me life to turn around and to have good things happen to me too. I sit at night and try to remember what bliss feels like, what excitement feels like, what contentment feels like. I miss having a guy - I have become great at being independent but I feel like I have been single again for so long that I have stopped growing. I pray to God and the universe for me to meet my husband and for me to know he is a good match for me. I pray I feel lucky every day to be with him and that at least some of the this pain has been worth the wait.
Please pray that good things, positive things, start to come my way soon...