There is a young girl who i have been helping
as a volunteer minister for about 6 years now.
It has gone from at first hopeful & soo beautifully positive
to soo horribly negative and soo downhill
People have free will & they may say they are Christians
but unless they are willing to live it...nothing will change
This young girl has both feet in the world at this point
and her Grandmother wanted to throw her out for months now
i spoke to her grandmother last night
to please give her a second chance
and we prayed and she agreed to give her granddaughter a second chance
to stop some very bad behavior's & turn her life around...
When i asked the granddaughter to just thank her grandmother for her
change of heart & tell
her she loved her she refused to and told me off for helping her...
i begged her to please do the right thing and not lose this wonderful miracle.
she did but then acted very badly yet again...
this is the grandmother & granddaughter who also need a new place
to rent which i asked for prayer about
...and by A Miracle her grandmother found a house to rent this week
with no stairs and is looking at it this evening...
i am burnt out from the girl who i mentor at this point because
today she was mouthing off to me yet again...
she steals, does drugs, drinks, is immoral, and lie's to the point that
i can not discern what the truth is any more when i talk to her.
We used to pray & have church services by phone and do bible studies
but she only gets worse and worse and worse and worse...
i am not her doormat
i am her sister in Christ...
I ASK FOR PRAYER TO KNOW IF IT IS TIME TO SHAKE
THE DUST OFF OF MY FEET
I DO NOT WANT TO CAST PEARLS BEFORE SWINE
I HAVE TRIED MY VERY BEST
SHE NEVER USED TO DIS-RESPECT ME BUT NOW WHAT COMES OUT
OF HER MOUTH TO ME IS SHOCKING
WHEN RESPECT IS LOST
EVERYTHING IS LOST AND A FRIEND OF MINE SAID THAT EVENTUALLY
HER GRANDMOTHER WILL HAVE TO ASK HER TO LEAVE
EVEN FROM THIS NEW HOUSE RENTAL
I FEEL LIKE I HAVE FAILED HER
I KNOW I TRIED MY BEST BUT STILL IT WAS NOT GOOD ENOUGH
I KNOW I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR HER DECISIONS OR BEHAVIOR
BUT IT HURTS ME TO KNOW SHE HAS ONLY GOTTEN WORSE
AFTER ALL OF THIS TIME...I HAVE NO MORE ANSWERS...
MAY THE LORD IN HIS INFINITE WISDOM
SHOW ME THE RIGHT DECISION TO MAKE
BECAUSE I BELIEVE IT IS TIME TO WALK AWAY...
AND MAY HE THEN SEND SOMEONE WHO I CAN FELLOWSHIP WITH
AND PRAY WITH WHO IS A JOY AND BUILDS ME UP TOO
AND NOT SOMEONE WHO GRIEVES MY HEART SOO MUCH...
PEOPLE DO NOT KNOW WHAT THEY HAVE UNTIL THEY LOSE IT
THEN THEY WANT TO COME BACK BUT IF THEY HAVE NOT REPENTED
IT ONLY LEADS TO MORE SORROW IN MY HUMBLE ESTIMATION...
I HAVE GIVEN THIS YOUNG GIRL SOO MANY SECOND CHANCES
BUT I AM NOT HER SAVIOR...JESUS IS...
AND I TOLD HER THAT...BUT SHE BLAMES EVERYTHING ELSE
AND EVERYONE ELSE FOR WHY SHE IS THE WAY THAT SHE IS....
MAY I NOW MAKE A WISE DECISION WITH THE LEADING AND GUIDING
OF THE HOLY GHOST...
I WOULD NEVER ABANDON ANYONE WHO WAS SINCERE ABOUT THE LORD
NEVER...I LOVE TO HELP PEOPLE...IT IS AN HONOR & A PRIVILEGE...
BUT IN THIS CASE I DO NOT KNOW ANY MORE WHAT TO THINK...
FATHER IN JESUS'S NAME
PLEASE
MAY YOU REVEAL YOUR PERFECT WILL TO ME
PERHAPS SOMEONE ELSE THAT YOU CHOOSE TO SEND
CAN GET THRU TO THIS YOUNG GIRL
WHAT I NO LONGER CAN...
PLEASE DO WHAT IS BEST FOR HER
AND ABOVE ALL
SHOW ME WHAT IS THE FINAL DECISION TO MAKE HERE ONCE
AND FOR ALL
WHEN PEOPLE CRY WOLF A MILLION TIMES
BUT THERE WAS NO WOLF
YOU HAVE TO GIVE UP AT THAT POINT...IT IS OVER...
MAY YOU BLESSED TRINITY HAVE MERCY ON HER SOUL
AND SEND HER THE SPIRITUAL HELP THAT SHE SOO DESPERATELY NEEDS
BEFORE THE WOLF FINALLY COMES AND IT IS TOO LATE FOR HER...
FATHER IN JESUS'S NAME
HEAR MY PRAYER
AND ANSWER ME TONIGHT....
GIVE ME GODLY SPIRITUAL WISDOM AND RAZOR SHARP DISCERNMENT ABOVE ALL ELSE I PRAY NOW IN JESUS'S NAME...
AMEN...XOXOX...