Will u help me? I need a prayer request. I am from India. I have parents and family. But I am living like a orphan. My parents don't look after me. My husband is having affair with some other lady. I was like wandering and finding people to help me in the tribulations I am facing on this earth. I am not finding people to satisfy my earthly desires or flesh related desires.. but I am in search of peace , security, and development in my career and for companionship In my life. My age is 30 . I haven't found no one and no one also took me even after listening to my worries. So many people seeing my loneliness using for their financial things and some people are using me for their flesh satisfying desires. I am tired of searching for people. And I decided not to search for any. But I want to do one thing for my life., to be more independent and more strong of being alone That is my career. In this career, because of continuous hurts and deceivers I decided to move away from everyone I am with and to start a fresh life. For my decision,I have applied for transfer. Three days ago, I got my transfer approval orders and my promotion list. At the same times, I was promoted. Promotion is not actually in my plans. But the both things came at the same time. Promotion is not beneficial to me and it also it doesn't give me any financial enhancement also. It just a stage ahead to carry out my responsibilities legally than unofficially. It also fills with lot of risk. If I take transfer I dont know what loop lines does the transfer has. ( likes plans of wicked and evil plot of satan). I have been tormenting here(the present work place for 8 years with all the collegues and others who are using me for their needs. I am fed up with these people here. My parents left me and I am living in a hostel. My husband is having affair with girl and he don't even see my face. I have a unhealthy childhood with painful past. I am not happy anywhere. Happiness is appearing me like for a temporary period and every thing is just fading after they use me. Leave about the people ,the carrer is also doing the same to me. If any competitive exam is of three to four stages , I will succeed in two stages and three stages and I will fail at end stage. I either fail at first stage or any one of the stage till I reach end. Otherwise, the factors will not let me to take the exam I qualified. I am fed up trying everything. Neither family, nor career ..nothing is helping me. Even i burst all my feelings saying anyone, they will behave one to two months normal and use me for the remaining months or abuse me or they are feeling like burden to carry me in their lives. I have no one say all these..i am praying. God has given me the promise that I will eat the labour of my hands. And isiaah 45 - choosing Cyrus. But i am unable to decide and unable to move forward with the fear of failure and rejection. It was like getting promises of God going to two or 3rd stages of sucess and failing in final stage. My faith is diminishing. With these people showing no kindness towards me even after I ask or for their moral support, (they don't help me) when I read verses of kindness and love also I am not able to belive or respond. " This is habit for eight years, my life hasn't changed yet. The man I married not taking me, my parents does not came back to look after their daughter. Not even one soul to support me through the spiritual dismissal of me. , no miracles are happening to me what is the need of living" This became my mind set. I am taking pblms and I feel like saying "ok let come and eat me". I am not fighting mentally, physically or spiritually this is my stage. I am helpless.. I can't live like this. This year is also a nightmare to me. Just now I received a verse that I shall eat the labout of my hands. And day of before yesterday I received isaih 45- cyrus After that I received both transfer of promotion. I am not knowing what to decide. Transfer: is what I prayed for as I don't want to be connected with these people and start fresh life. And dreaming ahead to do masters in canada or USA . Promotion- same place with additional responsibilities. People are same. Facing the war alone with the new wine in the old bag.
Kindly help me with the prayer. And tell me by hearing to God.