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Written June 26 2013
Just to catch every one up about what has happened to me in the past 4 months is, yes you guessed it my Wife decided she wanted a divorce and yes it was because of my actions. Then a week later she was with someone we use to hang out with, when he was married we did couple things together, then I lost my job, then my car broke down. Oh and it was over 4 months ago but my Dog died on my birthday. Yes I know sounds like a country song right? Ok so there is a sad story boohoo ok now lets get to the uplifting post I am working on. So I was down on my knees in tears with more bad news going on in my life (or so I thought). Wait a minute that's not uplifting, oh that's right I am not there yet. The Electric, Gas and Water are all going to be shut off tomorrow. Yes isn't that great news, ok ok now stop with the sarcasm I am getting there. I started with the pity party to God. I was getting mad at God honestly and I figured I would let Him know I was mad (as if he didn't Know) But I was shouting up to heaven "God haven't I suffered enough for what I did? Am I not doing things right by Your Words?" And surprisingly enough no lightning struck me, I wasn't even stung by a bee or anything. Nope our Father responded to my pity with kind and gentle words. He said "Scott what makes you think you are being punished?". Well I had an answer for Him oh yes I did, I said "well God I am broke I am almost out of food and the food I have will spoil if the electric gets shut off. I have my kids this week and them being ages 3 and 5 well you can not expect them to eat uncooked food since my oven is electric so more than likely I will have to have their mom come and pick them up". God answered me in the way He has allot lately with "Call Your Mom and tell her what you just told me". Now before we go into talking to my mother let me explain a little but, no my mom isn't like Mary but my mom is an ordained minister (if you knew me over 4 months ago you would have doubted I even heard the name of God) and on top of that my mom is pretty in tune with our Father. Well you could have guessed the verbal lashing I received from my mother reminding me of what He has done for me in the past 4 months. Remember all the sad bad things I said that happened since my wife left and went to another man? Well that part is still going on but the Job thing that I lost. Yes that, well back when that happened only a few months ago, I was out of money going to interviews I needed to pay the car payment, rent was coming, I needed groceries and I had some blood work that had to be done because I was having some scary symptoms (don't worry I am fine it just turned out that you need to eat more than once ever 30 days) Well the day before the car payment was due I received unexpectedly 1100 in cash. That was the perfect amount for the blood work car payment and car insurance payment the best part about this is I didn't let anyone know I was hurting for money in fact I told God I wasn't even going to worry about it and I didn't. Then my church decided to pay my FULL months rent for that month. And I was at a Job interview and the guy said I want you to go do something nice for your family this weekend here is 80 bucks, I used that for groceries, Well job search wasn't going well so I prayed that God would send me a Job I didn't expect, sure enough the next day someone called me who worked in a different area of the office I was fired from and begged me to come work for them, less money but it was a job. I took the Job reluctantly I mean after all who wants to work down the hall from the people who fired you? After being there for only 2 days I get a call from my dream job I applied for wanting me to go to orientation to start the job, 75000 a year full benefits I thought for sure this is the job God wants me to have. Even though training I would be gone for 3 months. So I decided to say yes and planed on going the next day. Something told me not to say anything to my new job, so I didn't I just asked for the day off which the gladly gave me. And on my way to the other Job interview my insides where telling me something, so I prayed I said God if you don't want me to go to this job please make it known. Well have you ever heard the phrase be careful what you ask for? Well I found out that it is true not 10 minutes after I asked that did my car decide it was done living. I laughed a little and said OK God I hear ya. I tried fixing that dumb car so many times but it wouldn't stay running for me at all after the break down. But it was ok I had a job but I had to ride the bus to it but at least I had a job. SO the first day of my bus ride I get to work and my new boss was just talking to me seeing how life was, I wasn't complaining I was doing the kind talk where I didn't want them to know my problems, well my Boss said "hey Scott I have this truck I don't use anymore my wife wants me to get ride of it but I don't want to sell it and never see it do you want it for free? I will even pay the insurance and registration." he had no idea my car was dead, Well of course I said Yes, and even though that truck is ugly I love it because to me its my proof of miracles. But any way I am still trying to catch up with bills and after 3 extensions and a 400 dollar bill the utility company stops being nice so I have to get it turned off tomorrow. After my pity party my begging for God to help me and praying for a miracle and getting yelled at by my mom God reminded me of something. He said we should be joyful in every aspect of our lives even the trials. I never got that until tonight. Think about this for me... when the Israelites where looking at the red sea and the Egyptians where chasing them down it looked hopeless to them, but what happened? Hope came from the most unexpected way the waters parted and a way was made. I am not saying that my electricity wont get shut off, but I don't know what God is planning and how he can use this. You never know what he is planning and where your miracle will come from. So yes we should laugh in our hard times, laugh at Satan and tell him you may have taken this away from me but my God is giving and He loves me so I cant wait to see what he does for me since I love Him and follow Him. We are all waiting for our miracle we are all hoping for the exact same thing here. We want our families back we want to be happy again, we want to do it right. Well as bad as this hurts waiting without knowing but trusting in Him, and being prepared to wait as long as it takes just to be faithful to Him. Then I tell you my brothers Laugh at our pain for it wont last, love our God because He will last and just because things look like there is no way out doesn't mean there isn't, sooner or later your red sea will part and God will show you the way, so rejoice in every thing not because we hurt but because God has a plan and I promise if you listen and follow His words there is no limit to the happiness He can bring. Laughing is just getting ready for the extreme happiness on the way. Do not give up friends do not waiver it will be worth the wait.
Written June 26 2013
Just to catch every one up about what has happened to me in the past 4 months is, yes you guessed it my Wife decided she wanted a divorce and yes it was because of my actions. Then a week later she was with someone we use to hang out with, when he was married we did couple things together, then I lost my job, then my car broke down. Oh and it was over 4 months ago but my Dog died on my birthday. Yes I know sounds like a country song right? Ok so there is a sad story boohoo ok now lets get to the uplifting post I am working on. So I was down on my knees in tears with more bad news going on in my life (or so I thought). Wait a minute that's not uplifting, oh that's right I am not there yet. The Electric, Gas and Water are all going to be shut off tomorrow. Yes isn't that great news, ok ok now stop with the sarcasm I am getting there. I started with the pity party to God. I was getting mad at God honestly and I figured I would let Him know I was mad (as if he didn't Know) But I was shouting up to heaven "God haven't I suffered enough for what I did? Am I not doing things right by Your Words?" And surprisingly enough no lightning struck me, I wasn't even stung by a bee or anything. Nope our Father responded to my pity with kind and gentle words. He said "Scott what makes you think you are being punished?". Well I had an answer for Him oh yes I did, I said "well God I am broke I am almost out of food and the food I have will spoil if the electric gets shut off. I have my kids this week and them being ages 3 and 5 well you can not expect them to eat uncooked food since my oven is electric so more than likely I will have to have their mom come and pick them up". God answered me in the way He has allot lately with "Call Your Mom and tell her what you just told me". Now before we go into talking to my mother let me explain a little but, no my mom isn't like Mary but my mom is an ordained minister (if you knew me over 4 months ago you would have doubted I even heard the name of God) and on top of that my mom is pretty in tune with our Father. Well you could have guessed the verbal lashing I received from my mother reminding me of what He has done for me in the past 4 months. Remember all the sad bad things I said that happened since my wife left and went to another man? Well that part is still going on but the Job thing that I lost. Yes that, well back when that happened only a few months ago, I was out of money going to interviews I needed to pay the car payment, rent was coming, I needed groceries and I had some blood work that had to be done because I was having some scary symptoms (don't worry I am fine it just turned out that you need to eat more than once ever 30 days) Well the day before the car payment was due I received unexpectedly 1100 in cash. That was the perfect amount for the blood work car payment and car insurance payment the best part about this is I didn't let anyone know I was hurting for money in fact I told God I wasn't even going to worry about it and I didn't. Then my church decided to pay my FULL months rent for that month. And I was at a Job interview and the guy said I want you to go do something nice for your family this weekend here is 80 bucks, I used that for groceries, Well job search wasn't going well so I prayed that God would send me a Job I didn't expect, sure enough the next day someone called me who worked in a different area of the office I was fired from and begged me to come work for them, less money but it was a job. I took the Job reluctantly I mean after all who wants to work down the hall from the people who fired you? After being there for only 2 days I get a call from my dream job I applied for wanting me to go to orientation to start the job, 75000 a year full benefits I thought for sure this is the job God wants me to have. Even though training I would be gone for 3 months. So I decided to say yes and planed on going the next day. Something told me not to say anything to my new job, so I didn't I just asked for the day off which the gladly gave me. And on my way to the other Job interview my insides where telling me something, so I prayed I said God if you don't want me to go to this job please make it known. Well have you ever heard the phrase be careful what you ask for? Well I found out that it is true not 10 minutes after I asked that did my car decide it was done living. I laughed a little and said OK God I hear ya. I tried fixing that dumb car so many times but it wouldn't stay running for me at all after the break down. But it was ok I had a job but I had to ride the bus to it but at least I had a job. SO the first day of my bus ride I get to work and my new boss was just talking to me seeing how life was, I wasn't complaining I was doing the kind talk where I didn't want them to know my problems, well my Boss said "hey Scott I have this truck I don't use anymore my wife wants me to get ride of it but I don't want to sell it and never see it do you want it for free? I will even pay the insurance and registration." he had no idea my car was dead, Well of course I said Yes, and even though that truck is ugly I love it because to me its my proof of miracles. But any way I am still trying to catch up with bills and after 3 extensions and a 400 dollar bill the utility company stops being nice so I have to get it turned off tomorrow. After my pity party my begging for God to help me and praying for a miracle and getting yelled at by my mom God reminded me of something. He said we should be joyful in every aspect of our lives even the trials. I never got that until tonight. Think about this for me... when the Israelites where looking at the red sea and the Egyptians where chasing them down it looked hopeless to them, but what happened? Hope came from the most unexpected way the waters parted and a way was made. I am not saying that my electricity wont get shut off, but I don't know what God is planning and how he can use this. You never know what he is planning and where your miracle will come from. So yes we should laugh in our hard times, laugh at Satan and tell him you may have taken this away from me but my God is giving and He loves me so I cant wait to see what he does for me since I love Him and follow Him. We are all waiting for our miracle we are all hoping for the exact same thing here. We want our families back we want to be happy again, we want to do it right. Well as bad as this hurts waiting without knowing but trusting in Him, and being prepared to wait as long as it takes just to be faithful to Him. Then I tell you my brothers Laugh at our pain for it wont last, love our God because He will last and just because things look like there is no way out doesn't mean there isn't, sooner or later your red sea will part and God will show you the way, so rejoice in every thing not because we hurt but because God has a plan and I promise if you listen and follow His words there is no limit to the happiness He can bring. Laughing is just getting ready for the extreme happiness on the way. Do not give up friends do not waiver it will be worth the wait.
