Decided to log in to close my account and decided to reply one last time. I have been on this earth for nearly 40 years and have grown up in the religion & beliefs instilled upon me by my parents. But around 7 years ago after not only a major medical situation that took a major toll on my finances as well as my spirit I lost belief. If you don't like it tough I don't care one bit what you think or feel because to me you are nothing more than a judgemental individual and in my experience the so-called "deeply religious" area I have grown up there are a lot of people who claim to be Christian but forget the teaches of their God and do nothing to uplift anyone in any way. So, I will say this I have given Jesus nearly 40 years of blind belief and faith and that has only led to heartbreak, disappointment, and a feeling of unworthiness, being unloved and abandoned by Jesus. Think what you want, believe what you want, and pass whatever judgment you want but know out of everyone on this site I have never felt an ounce of support or love from people who judge because I don't feel as they do. With that, I hope you have a wonderful life and live how you see fit. Take care