AGGIE
Servant of All
dear all, join me in prayer as well as offer me advice as i feel am confused. firat of all am thanking God for his blessing in my job i got a promotion and pay hike, my other side of the story is concerning my life, i met the father of my child back in 2005, within two months i was pregnant but due to our foolishness since i was still in college we decided i have an abortion which we did, and we continued with our relationship, in less than a year i was pregnant again but ths time i carried through and God blessedus with a beautiful baby girl. we then started living together, life was well by then and he did not have a job but when he got the job i olst mine and from their things changed, we started having fights even physical ones and in the process he became unfaithful to me, we used to separate like for 2/3/4 months then we would unite again but after a short period we would separate again, we became so distance and i also ended up being unfaithful. At the start of this year we reunited again and promised one another to love and respect each other and make our family, things were going well until one day the ex gilrfriend, when i inquired from him he became rude to me, and things started changing, until one day we had i fight and i got wounded. one night he told me to leave his house and he reglects for having came back to me, at that time i really felt bad and i moved out, after sometime he came back looking for me and we were almost getting back together but suddenly he became cold to me, then one day when my daughter went to his house she found a lady there and when i again sort explanation from him he told me that he is a free man to do whatsoever he wills , then when he knew about my promotion and transfer he started asking me to go back, but i declined, recently we me and he told me that he had been reading my emails and he knew i was unfaithful to him, i agreed and asked for his forgiveness but my decision is not to go back since in that relationship i never saw any growth, and i feel even if i go back its the same story because i have tried so many times but the situation never changes, i feel i want to live a clean life, ever since i left i feel happy, confident with my self, i respect my body and even my health has improved, i have tied to tell him that he move on but he insist. then like three month ago i was really praying to God to show me the way, that is when my daughter found a lady in his apartment and the same week i saw a man in my dreams, he is my collegue, but we never talk unless concerning work, since then i cannot get him out of my mind, i have always prayed to God, but with time my feelings for him have become stronger towards him, now am wondering what is God will. " dear Lord i thankyou for your blessings in my life without you lord i cannot do anything and dear lord i pray that you will always keep me under your arms so that i will always live for you and keep your commands, father Lord speak to me that i will know your will in my life and obey it, amen".
