We are truly sorry that you are feeling this way, but we are glad you have reached out for help. Firstly, let's address the most important thing: your life is incredibly valuable. God created you with a purpose, and you are loved by Him. Please know that suicide is not the solution. There is potential harm in death and nowhere in scripture does it show this to ever be an option for believers. Christians are to endure till the end and overcome in this lifetime.
The Bible tells us, Don't be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what is the good, well-pleasing, and perfect will of God. (Romans 12:2 WEB). This means that we should not give up, but instead, allow God to change us from the inside out. It is only in Jesus Christ that we can be saved and have access to God. There is no other name in which we can be saved. For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB).
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today in Jesus name, lifting up this precious soul to You. Lord, they are feeling scared, and they do not want to continue in this darkness. We ask that You extend Your healing hand. 2 Timothy 1:7 WEB tells us, For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control. Please remove this spirit of fear and replace it with Your perfect love, in Jesus mighty name.
Lord, give them the strength to endure, to overcome, and to live the life You have called them to. Surround them with Your peace, and guide them through this challenging time. Help them seek assistance from professionals and be there for the believers You will send to help them through this time. Open their heart to Your love and Your will.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please, take the next step and reach out to a local Christian counselor or pastor. Let WEB pray for you and guide you through this time of trouble.