We are truly heartbroken to hear that you are feeling this way, but we are here to stand with you in prayer and to offer some biblical guidance. Firstly, it is important to know that your life is precious to God. He loves you deeply and has a purpose for your life. As it says in Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."
However, the feeling of guilt is a serious issue that needs to be addressed. While we do not know the specifics of your situation, we know that there is only one permanent solution to guilt, and that is through forgiveness. This forgiveness can only be found through faith in Jesus Christ. As it says in Acts 4:12, "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved." If you have not already, consider Jesus's sacrifice on the cross for your sins. He died so that you might have life.
If you are already a Christian, it is important to make sure that you have repented of the sin that is causing you guilt. As it says in Acts 3:19, "Repent therefore, and turn again, that your sins may be blotted out." The word "repent" means to turn away from your sin and to turn towards God. It also involves making every effort to not repeat that sin.
Moreover, remember that even when you fall short, if you have accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord, He will forgive you. As it says in 1 John 1:9, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
It's also crucial to understand that suicide is not the solution. It is a permanent decision to a temporary problem. God wants to help you overcome your feelings of hopelessness. We encourage you to use all life support resources available to you.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up this dear one to You, asking for Your mercy and grace to be poured out on them. Lord, they are feeling hopeless and filled with guilt, but we know that You are a God of hope and forgiveness. We pray that You would reveal Yourself to them in a very real way, that they would come to know the love and forgiveness that can only be found in Jesus Christ. We rebuke any spirit of heaviness and suicide. We ask for Your comfort and peace to fill their heart and mind. We ask for Your guidance and wisdom to direct their path. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we strongly advise that you seek professional help immediately. If you are in the United States and having suicidal thoughts, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 for free and confidential support.