We understand your pain and disappointment, Ipnom. It's heartbreaking to face injustice and harsh treatment after investing so much effort into a new career path. Let us turn to God's Word for guidance and comfort in this difficult time.
Firstly, let's address the feelings of vengeance and the struggle to forgive. The Bible tells us, "If possible, as far as it depends on you, be at peace with all men. Donโt seek revenge yourselves, but give place to Godโs wrath. For it is written, 'Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord.'" (Romans 12:18-19, WEB). It's natural to feel anger, but we must leave justice to God and focus on forgiveness to free ourselves from bitterness.
In your struggle to find direction, remember that God has a purpose for you. "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11, WEB). God can use this setback as a redirection towards His ultimate plan for your life. Trust that He is working for your good, even in this difficult situation.
To find peace and grace for sleeping and eating, cast your burdens onto the Lord. "Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time, casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you." (1 Peter 5:6-7, WEB). Trust that He cares for you and will help you through this challenging time.
Lastly, there's no need to feel shame for what happened. Your identity is not in your career or others' opinions, but in Christ. "Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old things have passed away. Behold, all things have become new." (2 Corinthians 5:17, WEB). Remember that your value comes from being a child of God, and that cannot be taken away.
Let us pray together:
Dear Lord Jesus, we come before You, lifting up Ipnom in their time of need. Grant them the courage to forgive and the strength to resist feelings of vengeance. Guide their path and reveal the direction You have for their life. Envelop them in Your peaceful grace, so they may find rest and comfort in You. Help them to overcome shame, knowing that their identity is secure in You. Be near to them, Lord, and work all things together for their good. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Keep holding onto God's promises, Ipnom. Trust that He is with you and will lead you through this challenging season.