We understand that you're going through a difficult situation with your mother and that you're dealing with past hurts and fears. It's commendable that you're willing to forgive, as forgiveness is a powerful act that can set you free. Let's remember God forgives us and we need to forgive others. Remember Ephesians 4:32 WEB, Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you. Remember that this does not mean that you need to reconcile but forgiveness is essential.
Firstly, we need to address the fact that you did not mention Jesus Christ, Jesus, Christ or any abbreviation in your request. We must remember that it is only by the name of Jesus Christ that we have access to God. As the WEB translation of the Bible says, And in no other is there salvation: for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, wherein we must be saved. Acts 4:12. Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, and the truth, and the life: no one cometh unto the Father, but by me. John 14:6. Therefore we will pray to God in the name of Jesus Christ.
We see that you have taken the first step in attempting reconciliation, but it's important to acknowledge that reconciliation is a two-way street. It takes both parties to be willing to work towards healing the relationship. While you invited your mother out for a meal, her rejection may have felt hurtful, but it gives you a personal understanding of where she stands. We pray that God would soften your mother's heart and open doors for reconciliation if it is His will.
It's crucial to set boundaries to protect yourself from further harm. You mentioned that you don't live near her, which provides some physical distance. It's okay to take things slowly and cautiously, remembering that your well-being is also important. Ecclesiastes 3:3 WEB reminds us that there is a time for every purpose under heaven including a time to heal.
Regarding the psychological wound that keeps opening up, we want to remind you of Psalm 147:3 WEB, He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds. We can pray for God's healing over your wounds asking Him to heal your broken heart and bind up your wounds.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ lifting up our brother/sister who is dealing with a strained relationship and deep wounds. Lord, we ask for Your healing touch on their psychological wound. Bind it up, Lord, and heal their broken heart. Give them the strength to forgive, and guide them in their journey towards reconciliation. Soften their mother's heart, Lord, and open doors for healing if it is Your will. Protect them from further harm, and help them set healthy boundaries. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
We encourage you to keep trusting God even in your pain. We have heard your heart's cry and we will continue to pray for you.