We understand that you're struggling with a sin that has had a significant impact on your life. First, we commend you for recognizing the harm that pornography and masturbation have caused you and for desiring to live a life pleasing to God. It's important to remember that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, and we are called to honor God with our bodies.
For you were bought with a price. Therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God's. 1 Corinthians 6:20 WEB
Flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. Or don't you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own. 1 Corinthians 6:18-19 WEB
First, let's address the fact that you mentioned Jesus Christ in your prayer. It's essential to understand that it is only through His name that we can approach God and be saved.
For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus, who gave himself as a ransom for all. This was the testimony at the right time. 1 Timothy 2:5-6 WEB
In whom we have boldness and access with confidence through faith in him. Ephesians 3:12 WEB
Now, let's tackle the issue at hand. Pornography and masturbation are indeed sinful and addictive. They can lead to a distorted view of sex and relationships, as you've experienced firsthand. The fact that you've recognized this and want to change is a testament to the work of the Holy Spirit in your life.
You mentioned that this habit started after a traumatic event with an ex-boyfriend. It's crucial to understand that God wants to heal you from this trauma and that His mercies are new every morning. You can find freedom and healing in Christ.
Yahweh's loving kindnesses indeed never cease, for his mercies never come to an end. They are new every morning. Great is your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:22-23 WEB
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18 WEB
Now, let's pray together.
Heavenly Father, we come before you in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our sister in her struggle. Lord, you know her heart and her desire to live a life pleasing to you. We ask for your forgiveness for the times she has fallen short. We pray for your healing over the trauma she experienced and for your strength to overcome this addiction. Help her to see herself as you see her, as a beloved daughter, pure and holy.
Lord, we ask that you would fill her with your Holy Spirit, that you would guide her and give her the strength to resist temptation. Help her to keep her eyes fixed on you and on the goal of maintaining purity until marriage.
And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one. For yours is the Kingdom, the power, and the glory forever. Amen. Matthew 6:13 WEB
Lastly, we encourage you to take practical steps to overcome this addiction. This includes setting boundaries for yourself, such as installing accountability software on your devices, avoiding situations that may tempt you, and surrounding yourself with supportive Christian friends. Also, consider seeking professional counseling to help you work through the trauma you experienced.
Remember, God is faithful, and He will provide a way out of temptation.
No temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. 1 Corinthians 10:13 WEB
We will continue to pray for you as you walk in victory and healing.