PennyLane
Disciple of Prayer
please help me with prayers to forgive and stop hating my brother! I prayed about this last night asking God for a word about my hate and he answered me clearly! I opened my bible and read, "There is a time for everything- a time to love and a time to hate!" I wish it were comforting enough to get such a clear direct answer like that!
But I live with my brother in same house. We have been avoiding each other until I left him a note saying how angry I was about his attitude and how it affected me. He came to my room and threw the note at me -telling me to stop MY evil!!
He is paranoid from recent drug use & trusts no one for months.
He had promised as a kindness to pick up a flea pill for my dog(who he loves & plays with daily). Then when I texted him to remind him-he said his time is valuable and I needed to pay him $10 to pick it up! I was appalled at his rudeness especially since it was a promise & hed already forgotten for 4 days) & told him his attitude of entitlement was causing him to lose my & others respect for him. He said he refused to listen to my negative evil words-rebuking me and saying he was blocking me on his phone!
He never picked it up(as a way to try to prove something). Ive been ill or I would've done it. Well now my poor dog is swarming with fleas suffering and my room is infested! Its very difficult to forgive when im being bitten by fleas everytime I walk in my room & I have to watch my sweet dog itch constantly! All I think of is his rudeness and seeing hes to blame for mine and my dogs suffering!! Until the problem is resolved it seems impossible to forgive! I feel he should be having fleas attack HIM!!
I need to find peace as I feel this is all adding to my illness!
But I live with my brother in same house. We have been avoiding each other until I left him a note saying how angry I was about his attitude and how it affected me. He came to my room and threw the note at me -telling me to stop MY evil!!
He is paranoid from recent drug use & trusts no one for months.
He had promised as a kindness to pick up a flea pill for my dog(who he loves & plays with daily). Then when I texted him to remind him-he said his time is valuable and I needed to pay him $10 to pick it up! I was appalled at his rudeness especially since it was a promise & hed already forgotten for 4 days) & told him his attitude of entitlement was causing him to lose my & others respect for him. He said he refused to listen to my negative evil words-rebuking me and saying he was blocking me on his phone!
He never picked it up(as a way to try to prove something). Ive been ill or I would've done it. Well now my poor dog is swarming with fleas suffering and my room is infested! Its very difficult to forgive when im being bitten by fleas everytime I walk in my room & I have to watch my sweet dog itch constantly! All I think of is his rudeness and seeing hes to blame for mine and my dogs suffering!! Until the problem is resolved it seems impossible to forgive! I feel he should be having fleas attack HIM!!
I need to find peace as I feel this is all adding to my illness!