Elmoesor
Disciple of Prayer
Last night, I acted disrespectful toward God by whining about not having a husband and how all the suitors I met from online dating were either jerks or losers. I just want a mature decent man that knows how to take the initiative and has a job. Is that too much to ask? And I struggle with making friends because for some weird reason instead of being friends with normal and decent people, I am always getting stuck with people who are rude, or have the maturity of a toddler. I don’t like having out with them because I never feel like I could have fun at all. I felt like more like a babysitter rather than a friend because they call the shots on everything even when I was having fun. For example, a “friend” got up and walked around the park instead of sitting down with me for a brief presentation all because she got way too restless. Another example was how someone told me that I have to be with our friend at all times because she doesn’t like to socialize. Well, I am not like the other autistic people; I like to socialize! I like meeting people. What I don’t like is meeting jerks. Anyway, I felt that God has forgotten about me. I felt that he is punishing me by making me be friends with jerks/losers all because I am on the spectrum, don’t have a Master’s and the normal people didn’t know how to interact with me. In Jesus’ name we pray amen.