Hirpil
Disciple of Prayer
Hi prayer warriors I know this prayer request sounds very much bad. I’ve prayed, repented, and prayed asking God to remove this pregnancy. I dreamed of having a miscarriage but the next morning, just spotting. The ER doctor stated that, “I was experiencing a threatened miscarriage.” The felt of relief was a burden off my mental. I’ve suffered from ptsd from previous pregnancies. I have a ### year old and a ### year old. Not to mention the health issues that my youngest has.
My most recent experience was horrible and still is. I started a life with a worldly man and have been given grace and mercy as well as desernment but didn’t listen. God kept warning me. My child and unborn child father isn’t of God and doesn’t put him first. He’s mentally, emotionally, physically abusive. Even in front of our son. He’s obsessed with sex in all sickening ways. I can’t allow another child to be brought up in a situation like this again. I can’t imagine another child with him. My eyes and heart are open wide now.
On Monday, I had a termination appointment (I’ve never done this before) that would take two days to complete and I just couldn’t go through with it mentally. Although, it’s best for me in this moment I can’t handle this mentally. It’s taking a toll on my mental health. To the point where I can barely take care of my toddler. I need to be the best version of myself for my two sons I currently have. Just want to know why God just don’t allow me to miscarry.
My most recent experience was horrible and still is. I started a life with a worldly man and have been given grace and mercy as well as desernment but didn’t listen. God kept warning me. My child and unborn child father isn’t of God and doesn’t put him first. He’s mentally, emotionally, physically abusive. Even in front of our son. He’s obsessed with sex in all sickening ways. I can’t allow another child to be brought up in a situation like this again. I can’t imagine another child with him. My eyes and heart are open wide now.
On Monday, I had a termination appointment (I’ve never done this before) that would take two days to complete and I just couldn’t go through with it mentally. Although, it’s best for me in this moment I can’t handle this mentally. It’s taking a toll on my mental health. To the point where I can barely take care of my toddler. I need to be the best version of myself for my two sons I currently have. Just want to know why God just don’t allow me to miscarry.