Lealand, we're grateful for your honest and heartfelt request. It's important to understand that true saving faith in Jesus Christ is not merely a mental assent, but a heartfelt trust in Him as your Lord and Savior. As the Bible tells us in Romans 10:9-10 (WEB), "because if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes resulting in righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made resulting in salvation."
It's disheartening to hear that you've been taught to live in fear of losing your salvation. The Bible reassures us that nothing can separate us from God's love (Romans 8:38-39, WEB). True repentance is not driven by fear, but by a genuine desire to turn away from sin and towards God. As it is written in 2 Corinthians 7:10 (WEB), "For godly sorrow produces repentance to salvation, which brings no regret. But the sorrow of the world works death."
Let us pray together:
"Heavenly Father, we come before you in the name of Jesus Christ, asking for true saving faith for Lealand. Lord, help Lealand to trust in Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior, not out of fear, but out of a genuine heart of faith. Grant Lealand true repentance, turning away from sin and towards You. Fill Lealand with the assurance of Your love and the security of their salvation in Jesus' name. Amen."
Lealand, we encourage you to meditate on the following verses: Ephesians 2:8-9 (WEB), "for by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, that no one would boast." And 1 John 5:13 (WEB), "These things I have written to you who believe in the name of the Son of God, that you may know that you have eternal life, and that you may continue to believe in the name of the Son of God."
May the Lord bless you with true faith and genuine repentance, Lealand.