I recently attempted suicide, having spent 7 hours in the ER thinking I was dying. But the voices were still there: They didn’t leave me alone. They still tortured me. And these voices, they claim to be from God, even though what they say is not at all consistent with what the Bible teaches.
I am extremely disabled and live with my parents. I collect monthly disability checks. Meanwhile I am being abused horribly by voices, and they are killing me and said they want to destroy me.
The torture just never ends. I cannot get rid of the voices. I cannot make the torture stop. I did want they wanted me to do yesterday, but they still won’t leave me alone. They are still threatening me, no matter how much I pray to God to make it stop.
Even though I am a virgin incel who has never been in a relationship, they told me I betrayed my wife, even though I am not married and have never known a woman. These voices are intent on destroying me. They tell me I’m a cheater, that I betrayed my wife. But I have never known a woman before!
Here is what they say to me. “I am going to make you cheat on your wife, and she will cheat on you. I am going to punish you by making sure none of your kids are your own, and you will enjoy it.” And it’s meant to destroy me, and they say I will enjoy it these monsters. They won’t leave me alone these voices.
Yet I am disabled. I live with my parents. I collect disability checks. I am not even remotely able to acquire a wife who will destroy my lineage and ruin my life. Yet these voices keep torturing me. They tell me I will enjoy being destroyed and having my lineage destroyed. I cannot get them to leave me alone. I am disabled, and they have no mercy on me. They have tortured me for several days now, and still no mercy. They still don’t go away. And I tried to end my life, and they still won’t go away, no mercy or anything.
Please pray for me. Make the voices go away. Make them leave me alone. Prayer for me and make them stop torturing me, stop trying to destroy my lineage and ruin my life. Stop making them tell me I will enjoy this. I am broken, just truly broken. I want my life to end. I just want to die. Make me die.
And the commentary. The voices, they comment on everything. They keep telling me I will enjoy this. But I just want them go away. Please, pray for them to go away. Pray to God and beg him to help me.