Aprosopolerion
Disciple of Prayer
Hi all,
Please pray for my healing and restoration. I fell into this “Kingdom Spouse” deception and have been for the past almost 3 years. It’s the idea that God will show you your spouse in a dream, and you’ll have to pray/war/intercede for them. They’ll reject you, run from you, etc. but eventually God will reconcile you both, heal you both, and bring you two together in union/marriage. Feel free to look it up on YouTube/TikTok. I’ve realized now that what it REALLY is, and it is obsession and idolatry. It’s a trick of the enemy to get you to come into agreement with something and someone that’s not for you.
For three years I prayed, fasted, and did all sorts of things for and with a man who rejected me (and still has) under the deception of this “kingdom spouse” thing. I was so in love and TRULY believed that he was my person, even though he is not. We had sex, took vacations, and spent every day together, only for him to continue to tell me that he wasn’t ready for a relationship/marriage. But, me being deceived by this “Kingdom Spouse” thing, I just fought, prayed, and tried harder. I’m completely heartbroken. I’m just ready to be set free. I don’t want to be hurt, angry, sad, or bitter anymore. I need God to heal me and set me free completely so that I can move on to who and what God really has for me. I’ve been so heartbroken and depressed. I’ve had suicidal thoughts behind the amount of pain, embarrassment, shame, and regret that I feel. All I do is sleep, cry, and beg God to take the pain away. I just want to know that healing is possible and that I can TRULY move forward from this. I feel so lost and heartbroken. I just need hope. Please pray for me.
Please pray for my healing and restoration. I fell into this “Kingdom Spouse” deception and have been for the past almost 3 years. It’s the idea that God will show you your spouse in a dream, and you’ll have to pray/war/intercede for them. They’ll reject you, run from you, etc. but eventually God will reconcile you both, heal you both, and bring you two together in union/marriage. Feel free to look it up on YouTube/TikTok. I’ve realized now that what it REALLY is, and it is obsession and idolatry. It’s a trick of the enemy to get you to come into agreement with something and someone that’s not for you.
For three years I prayed, fasted, and did all sorts of things for and with a man who rejected me (and still has) under the deception of this “kingdom spouse” thing. I was so in love and TRULY believed that he was my person, even though he is not. We had sex, took vacations, and spent every day together, only for him to continue to tell me that he wasn’t ready for a relationship/marriage. But, me being deceived by this “Kingdom Spouse” thing, I just fought, prayed, and tried harder. I’m completely heartbroken. I’m just ready to be set free. I don’t want to be hurt, angry, sad, or bitter anymore. I need God to heal me and set me free completely so that I can move on to who and what God really has for me. I’ve been so heartbroken and depressed. I’ve had suicidal thoughts behind the amount of pain, embarrassment, shame, and regret that I feel. All I do is sleep, cry, and beg God to take the pain away. I just want to know that healing is possible and that I can TRULY move forward from this. I feel so lost and heartbroken. I just need hope. Please pray for me.