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Dear Almighty Father, I humbly ask for your forgiveness, I am weak and easily derailed. I know all the events that happened to me during the past 13 years albeit unpleasant has been part of your greatest plan for me . Whether or not it is my punishment or for my spiritual growth will only be known to You and I want you to know that I accept it either way as the mere idea of you punishing me or growing my spirit provides enough comfort in knowing that you have not given up on me and have not abandoned me. I know I am battling addiction, I am struggling to forgive, I am being eaten up on the inside by hatred I feel worthless. I use to judge people for the very same actions I am guilty of and now know that only you are allowed to judge. I must be honest Lord life is difficult for me and I wish numerous times a day that I didn't exist. However I accept that when the time comes for me to experience relief be it death or finally experiencing the joys of life it will be when you say it is time. It is difficult for me to not ask why or beg for better times but I know that I am placed here by you with a purpose that is unknown to me and might even remain unknown to me until I stand in front of you for judgment. However Lord I pray that you guide and help me to become a better person release me of my inner demons and make me a person that you can be proud of. Forgive me for my magnitude of sins. Give me the wisdom to prevent me from sinning. I admit guilt for all my sins and accept that even when you forgive me I still need to be punished for my sins as it is what is expected of a good father. I want you to know that no matter what I love you and always have and always will. Your humble servant Reynier.