God will provide a way, please reach out to your community, neighbors, locally as well. I am praying for you to be strong and faithful in the Lord, he is a mighty provider yet a closed mouth does not get fed. There is never a reason to end your life. Please stay encouraged for yourself as well as your child. Breathe in the love of God. Know that he hears your prayers and your crying out to him. He will provide, I have seen this with my own two eyes. I have been in your shoes before not knowing where the next bite to eat will come from but I assure you that our God is here for you. I am praying for you and know that God hears you. I encourage you to continue to praise him throughout the day. It will be music to our loving father God's ears and make your worries, and the devil go away. You will see miracles happen like never before. I love you, please stay strong.