Anonymous
Beloved of All
Please pray for me. I feel really down, frustrated and weary today, very tired and I just want to cry the whole time. I am constantly thinking of my ex, what he is doing, where he is, who he is talking, what he is thinking about and who he is with, what his plans are etc etc... I feel like I've made him an idol. Even when we were dating, I just always wanted to be with him, near him and know everything, always... Not sure where this obsession is stemming from, but now that we are broken up, it remains and perhaps it's because I've become desperate for his hand in marriage... maybe I've made marriage an idol too. Sick and tired of feeling like this, he is living his life and just doing whatever, while my thoughts are consumed by him. I really want him to come back to me, and give us another chance. Wholeheartedly, unwaveringly, unconditionally, fully committed... Always thought that we would get married and be so happy together with one another. My love for this man is deep and it feels like it deepens every day. But feeling like I am obsessing, is just horrible! The longing to have a person commit to you is just so hurtful, and it doesn't look as if he is even bothered with me. I feel rejected, unwanted, not worthy, depressed and still longing for him to probably accept me, respect me, want me back and the thoughts race around like this... it's not right. I just want to be a healthy-minded human being and not be so overly concerned about this person's life and whereabouts. Please pray for me, I know it's not healthy and it's affecting my life and choices.