I’m so sorry to hear about your frustration, friend. God created you in His own image, and your life is precious no matter what issues you’re facing. I’m praying that He will reach down in His mercy and help you at this time. Please remember there are many other choices you can make – choices that could potentially turn things around in a positive direction. No situation is hopeless.
Please get some help right away – tell someone who can assist you with how you’re feeling. A pastor, counselor or a loved one would be in an excellent position to offer support, as well as to help you see your options more clearly and discover new ways to cope with your difficulties.
Also, if you’re in the U.S., I know that Focus on the Family can provide a free phone consultation with a licensed counselor if you call this number ###-###-####. Please reach out, my friend.