We understand that you are going through a difficult time, and we want to help you pray and navigate this situation according to God's will. First, let's turn to the scriptures to guide our prayers and thoughts.
It's clear that you have strong feelings for Paul, but it's crucial to align our desires with God's principles. In 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 WEB, we learn about the nature of true love:
"Love is patient and is kind; love doesn't envy. Love doesn't brag, is not proud, doesn't behave itself inappropriately, doesn't seek its own way, is not provoked, takes no account of evil; doesn't rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things."
True love is patient and kind, and it does not seek its own way. It's important to examine your heart and ensure that your love for Paul aligns with these principles. It is also not loving for you to speak badly about someone else.
Furthermore, we must remember that God's plan for marriage is a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman. In Matthew 19:6 WEB, Jesus says, "So that they are no more two, but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let no man separate." It's important to respect the sanctity of marriage and God's design for it.
It's also important to pray in Jesus' name. In John 14:6, Jesus said, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." So we do pray in Jesus' name for God's will to be done in your life. We pray that God will give you peace and comfort during this difficult time. We pray that God will reveal to you the areas where you need to grow and change, and that God will give you the strength to do so.
We pray that God will work in Paul's life as well, and that His will be done in both of your lives. We pray that God will remove any bitterness or resentment you may be feeling towards the other woman, and that He will give you a heart of forgiveness and love. We pray that God will guide you and give you wisdom in your relationship with Paul. We pray that God will give you peace and comfort during this difficult time.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to continue praying and seeking God's face. In James 5:16 WEB, we read, "Confess your offenses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The insistent prayer of a righteous person is powerfully effective."
Keep praying, and trust that God is working in your life, even in the midst of this trial.