GVetn
Disciple of Prayer
I am the same man who, weeks ago, requested aggressive creative mental healing going back to a very destructive (spiritual warfare) missionary trip to Lebanon IN 1982 combined with thousands of drugs for bi-polar I had been taking for years. 40,000 Lebanese war refugees were evangelized and lives helped to be rebuilt by the ministry I was with, but I was mentally devastated by nothing but one of the hugest and most destructive demonic invasions in history (see my previous prayer requests for more info on this). Except for three temporary prayed through healings in the 1980s, since 1989 I continue to work a govt. job for 9 years, be married for 11 years, frequently write acknowledged e-mails to President Obama and Facebook and help hundreds at a VA Hospital, yet live non-stop with a brutal and complete mental destruction for decades an animal shouldn't live with for weeks. There's no explanation for what I still can do and can't do mentally Will I live long enough to ever see God and praying Christians move in this situation again? This ordeal started when I was 28 years old (serving in Lebanon). I will be 62 years old in July. When I still hear pastors say, "God loves you and wants to heal and restore your life," or "God loves you just the way you are, but too much to leave you that way," (especially for 26 years and counting for me) are they serious? For most of the time since 1982, even though I have been able to work and be married, I have been cut off from most all of my family, being a normal part of society and even the church-churches either ignore me or laugh at me like everyone else- anything but effective prayer for what is so obviously wrong just looking at me, cut off even my own past with total amnesia from Lebanon's total destruction. "Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy." What will it take to get God to ever help me again with this, after not helping for so long? While you are at it, I have a friend at work- a Navy veteran and an RN I used to work with for years when I was a CNA. He has the physical equivalent of what I have had mentally, but for two years instead of 26 years. It's been Hell for him as well because for two non-stop years,Patrick, has suffered with nerve pain in his left arm from a work-related injury while working at our VA hospital. Neither of us can be helped by medical science - it's way beyond that for both of us. Either Patrick finally gets a creative healing for his nerve damage and I finally get creative healing for all of my mental faculties or we both will live out our lives,as care-givers helping thousands of veterans, yet both of us suffering from unbearable conditions, indefinitely. Does God want to help people like us or not and what could possibly be the problem here blocking healing (neither of us can begin to help ourselves with)? Please advise and please pray...GVetn