Jesussaves89
Beloved of All
pleas epray fo rme im losing my will to live. im in a very difficult situaiton fightign illness adn caring for my ill grandma with asperger parent. tis parent cannot see emotions basically uncelss its VEWry apparent. this parent sschdule is killign me and th eamount of help and suspport they need i am in aforeigh country i hav enof riends or fmaiyl who even in area or care . i wihs God never created me. if eel abunsed abdoend isoltaed an di hav ecoornaphobia. i wish God neve rmade me. i cannto get any relief formt his ilnes even when God heale dme lots. my entire life rvolves in caregivign tkaign car eof the home. i feel liek prosioner.im so sa di odn understand whe ries th abundnt life. i feel iek the life has been so sucked out of me Lor dend my lfie.i can never clena htis hopem goood enough anywa ywhy am i alive why does God ahte me. i odnt understand my purpose but i jsut want it to be ove rm ylife. no on helps n one care im fighitng for my life very day an di hav eno say in my lfie. i dont understnd Gods cvoice at all. i feel so aloen i feel ao aloen somen help me!!!! why do i always have to eb stuck at hoem GOD WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO MBE STUCK AT HOEM doign chores iam so tired of my existance i dont know what to do i have no faith! if someoen cares pleas epray of rme no htign ever gets better nobody cares no one cares why am i alive why do i have to suffr dso much why