Jesussaves89
Beloved of All
Please pray for me. I am losing my will to live. I am in a very difficult situation, fighting illness and caring for my ill grandmother with an Asperger parent. This parent cannot see emotions basically unless it is very apparent. This parent's schedule is killing me, and the amount of help and support they need, I am alone in a foreign country. I have enough friends or family who even in the area or care. I wish God never created me. If I feel abandoned, abandoned, isolated, and I have ecophobia. I wish God never made me. I cannot get any relief from this illness even when God healed me lots. My entire life revolves in caregiving, taking care of the home. I feel like a professional. I am so sad I don't understand why I am in this abundant life. I feel like the life has been so sucked out of me for the end of my life. I can never clean this hope, good enough anyway, why am I alive? Why does God hate me? I don't understand my purpose, but I just want it to be over. My life. No one helps, no one cares. I am fighting for my life every day, and I have no say in my life. I don't understand God's voice at all. I feel so alone. I feel so alone. Someone help me!!!! Why do I always have to be stuck at home? GOD, WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO BE STUCK AT HOME doing chores? I am so tired of my existence. I don't know what to do. I have no faith! If someone cares, please pray for me. Nothing ever gets better. Nobody cares. No one cares. Why am I alive? Why do I have to suffer so much? Why?