need help mental illness and suicide

[Rorzuzin]

Please pray I don't know what to do anymore. Pray for all I'm about to tell you I have suffered and been tormented for so long, perhaps my whole life. Too many mental illnesses but the one driving me over the edge is this mix of obsessive compulsive disorder, hypersensitivity, phobia, addictive behavior, paranoia—I'm not even sure what it is. I'm scared of my brother who is 14 for no reason. I keep getting this on people I live with. I obsess over them, can't hear or see them, or go into freak out mode with rituals and questions for hours and torture. I can't take care of myself or stay in the house; it's so severe. I cry in agony and can't sleep. Everybody in my family is frustrated with me. I've tried medications, hospitals, people praying, so many things, and nothing seems to work. I almost overcame this once before after being away in foster care, but it came back again, severe. I need to wait until I'm ready to try and finish this, but who knows how long that will take, and I gotta live in this house in the meantime where my OCD thrives. I've been trying suicide for so long, but I feel more sure about this. I don't want anyone crying or sad when I'm dead; I don't have any friends but still. I almost stopped but then I realize if I don't get rid of this, who else is going to care about my internal pain... Sometimes you have to be selfish because nobody else will for you. Everyone only cares about my hygiene and education and appearance but not the pain causing those problems. I'm gonna get cords from my radios and phone and whatever else I find, go out, find a tree in walking distance where nobody is watching, and hope this works. If it doesn't, I'm scared because I don't want to be in a mental hospital; I suffer a lot in those places; they don't bring comfort, and I don't wanna go back to CPS or DCs; they abuse me so much, and what about the OCD??? If it does work, I'm scared I'll go to hell and change my mind even though God told me once He is with me forever and always. I don't want my family to know this; I don't want them worrying; it feels embarrassing and stupid. I'm doing this for all those suffering moments in the past and present and all those other versions of me that get tormented in the future; I'm doing this for you. Also, so the distress I bring on others from OCD is done away with. I'm still worrying about stupid crumbs I touched; it tortures me. I feel better than when I woke up, though. Please forgive me, Father, I know this is murder; somebody has to finish this. I'm sorry, though. I'm sorry for this last evil. I'm sorry, Jesus, and Lord.

 

[Valorie]

Please pray I don't know what to do anymore. Pray for all I'm about to tell you I have suffered and been tormented for so long perhaps my whole life. Too many mental illnesses but the one driving me over the edge is this mix of obsessive compulsive disorder hypersensitivity phobia addictive behavior paranoia I'm not even sure what it is. I'm scared of my brother who is ### for no reason. I keep getting this on people I live with. I obsess over them can't hear or see them or freak out mode with rituals and questions for hours and torture. I can't take care of myself or stay in the house it's so severe. I cry in agony and can't sleep. Everybody in my family is frustrated with me. I've tried medications hospitals people praying so many things and nothing seems to work. I almost overcame this once before after being away in foster care but it came back again severe. I need to wait until I'm ready to try and finish this but who knows how long that will take and I gotta live in this house in the meantime where my ocd thrives. I've been trying suicide for so long but I feel more sure about this. I don't want anyone crying or sad when I'm dead I don't have any friends but still. I almost stopped but then I realize if I don't get rid of this who else is going to care about my internal pain... Sometimes you have to be selfish because nobody else will for you. Everyone only cares about my hygiene and education and appearance but not the pain causing those problems. I'm gonna get cords from my radios and phone and whatever else I find go out find a tree in walking distance where nobody is watching and hope this works. If it doesn't I'm scared because I don't want to be in a mental hospital I suffer alot in those places they don't bring comfort and I don't wanna go back to CPS or DCS they abuse me so much and what about the ocd??? If it does work I'm scared ill go to hell and change my mind even though God told me once he is with me forever and always. I don't want my family to know this I don't want them worrying it feels embarrassing and stupid. I'm doing this for all those suffering moments in the past and present and all those other versions of me that get tormented in the future I'm doing this for you. Also so the distress I bring on others from ocd is done away with. I'm still worrying about stupid crumbs I touched it tortures me. I feel better than when I woke up though. Please forgive me father I know this is murder somebody has to finish this. I'm sorry though. I'm sorry for this last evil. I'm sorry Jesus and Lord.

 

[mycorize]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Valorie]

Lord, Heavenly Father, have mercy on your Child. Forgive, Help, guide your Child. Help your child see your light and your way. I Pray that God Bless you and relieve you of your pain and suffering and gives you peace and love within you. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

 

[alijahspal]

Don't give up, don't let the enemy win. Let's show Satan who's the boss. He who is in you is greater than he who is in this world. I'm lifting you up to God and asking Him to fill you with the peace and joy of His Holy Spirit and your heart with the spirit of Jesus. May you feel the love of Jesus in all you do. Asking Jesus to turn your sadness into gladness. Believing He will answer our prayers. Thank You Jesus amen

You are loved by Jesus and all of us here on this prayer site. I'm sending you His love from our hearts to yours.

 

[Zellner]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[mitchandkay]

PRECIOUS ONE, THE ENEMY OF YOUR SOUL IS TORMENTING YOU IN EVERY WAY HE CAN, YOU CANNOT LET HIM HAVE YOUR ETERNAL SOUL BY KILLING YOURSELF. I KNOW THAT NO ONE HERE ON THIS EARTH KNOWS WHAT PAIN YOU ARE GOING THROUGH BUT DEAR ONE, JESUS KNOWS AND HE CARES AND WANTS TO DELIVER YOU FROM ALL OF THIS. CALL OUT LOUD HIS HOLY NAME, HE IS RIGHT THERE WITH YOU, ASK FORGIVENESS AND IN THE POWER AND AUTHORITY OF THE NAME OF JESUS COMMAND ALL OF THIS TO LEAVE YOU AND NEVER RETURN, ASK THE HOLY SPIRIT OF GOD TO FILL YOU FRESH. DO THIS AGAIN AND AGAIN IF YOU HAVE TO, THE BIBLE TELLS US THAT THE NAME OF JESUS MAKES DEMONS TREMBLE, THERE IS POWER IN HIS NAME!!!!!! GLORY TO GOD! NEVER GIVE UP BECAUSE JESUS WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON YOU! GOD BLESS YOU!

 

[123]

God will protect you in your time of need. I pray that your prayer will be answered soon.
"For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." 2 Corinthians 4:17
May the Lord wrap his arms around you and keep you at peace. God Bless you with our Father always at your side protecting you and your needs.

 

[MARGRET DHANYA]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Brother James]

Praying with and for you in Jesus.

We can do everything Jesus did and more! We can speak; sickness leave in Jesus! Be healed by Jesus stripes! I am healed by Jesus stripes! Amen! Thank You Lord Jesus!

You can copy and paste this to pray every day and share...

There is nothing that happens for us that is bad. All things work for our good in Jesus! Look at everything as good!

Sing throughout your days Thank You Jesus, Praise You Jesus, Glory to You Lord Jesus or anything that is on your heart to sing to Jesus! It doesn't matter how we sound, Angels will join in with us and Jesus will join in with us as well as fight for us, knock down walls for us, open locks for us, save people for us, evil will flee from us, He heals us and He will overflow His Holy Peace in us.

Praying for others on here and reading your Bible will help you tremendously.

I wanted to commit suicide once, I even came up with a plan. Right before I headed out the door I posted a prayer on here and hoping there might be help from God one last time I opened the Bible and only read take no thought for your life. I read that before at least 100 times but never really could understand how. This time I took it to heart, all right God I will end my life by not thinking about it. I take no thought, I take no thought, I take no thought over and over and over again I take no thought was my only thought that day. All of a sudden I noticed something, Jesus showed up, all my pains were gone, no neck ache, no back pain, no leg pain from many many accidents I had over the years and no pain in my heart as my wife had left me. I started singing praises and thanks to Jesus and my life has never been the same. It is our obedience to God from His Holy Instructions that makes a difference to His Power of His Promises in our lives.

Be a doer of Jesus friend, it really makes a difference! Thank You Lord Jesus!

Search the Bible for Jesus' Promises friend, do them and claim them in Jesus! Amen! Thank You Lord Jesus!

Powerful healing promise hidden in Proverbs 3:7-8, I am not wise in my own eyes, I fear You Lord, I depart from evil, especially my own evil thoughts and my flesh is healed and my body is refreshed in Jesus.

Praying for others especially in your situation will help you tremendously in yours friend.

Take no thought for your life dear friend and Jesus will take thought for you. Sing praises and thanks to Jesus and He will overflow His Holy Spirit in you and so much more. He will fight for you and give you the desires of your heart.

Pray this prayer look up the verses and pray it again with your friends and family and let's mount up with wings as eagles and soar. Soar with me.

Let Us Pray: God I ask in Jesus' name, bless me to grow closer to You. I long for a more intimate relationship with You. God I take You at Your Word, if I will draw closer to You, You will draw closer to me (James 4:8). Show me how to draw closer to You. Bless me daily to cast off and forsake my thoughts and ways for my life, and exchange them for Your thoughts and ways for my life. Let me think Your thoughts and dream Your dreams for my life. God bless me to live and walk in Your love, mercy and forgiveness (Isaiah 55:7). I confess, I will take no thought for my life. I will trust You Father God to take thought for me and take care of me (Matthew 6:25-34). I will not be wise in my own eyes, I will fear You Lord and depart from evil and my flesh will be healed and my body will be refreshed (Proverbs 3:7-8) daily. Thank You Jesus for Your Promises! Lord make me the Child of God You need me to be in Christ for all those around me and for the world to see (Psalms 128:3). Not by my might, nor by my power, but by Your Spirit Christ Jesus (Zechariah 4:6) this shall happen. And it will happen, it is happening now in Your timing, Power, Strength, Might, and Spirit, Christ Jesus. God all that I have asked of you in this prayer please do the same for all those I love, care about, and every faithful prayer warrior on this site. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You Lord Jesus, my Savior and Lord for answering this prayer with a Yes and Amen.

Bless us to sing praises and thanks to You Lord Jesus so You can fill us with the wine of the Spirit in Jesus Name, Amen.