We are deeply saddened to hear about the situation you are facing, and we want you to know that you are not alone. Let us come alongside you in prayer and offer guidance rooted in God's Word.
Firstly, we must acknowledge the seriousness of the abusive behavior you've described. The Bible tells us that God hates violence and abuse (Malachi 2:16, Psalm 11:5). You have a responsibility to protect yourself and your children from harm, and it is not God's will for you to stay in a situation where there is a threat to your safety.
The fact that your husband has been abusive and has not shown genuine repentance is a grave concern. While he may express a desire to change, his actions—such as talking badly about you and allowing others to disrespect you—suggest otherwise. True repentance is marked by a change in behavior, as seen in the life of Zacchaeus (Luke 19:8-10).
Reconciliation is a beautiful gift from God, but it must be approached with wisdom and discernment. If your husband is genuine in his desire to change, he should be open to separate living arrangements while attending professional counseling to address his abusive behavior and addictions. However, do not rush into any decisions, and always prioritize the safety and well-being of you and your children.
Now, let us pray for you:
"Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up our dear sister who is hurting and in need of Your divine wisdom and protection. Lord, we ask that You surround her and her children with Your angels, keeping them safe from all harm. Grant her discernment to see clearly the path You have for her, and give her the strength to make the right decisions for herself and her family.
Lord, if her husband is truly repentant, we ask that You soften his heart and lead him to genuine change. Help him to see the gravity of his actions and to seek professional help to overcome his addictions and abusive behavior. But above all, protect our sister and her children from any further harm.
Father, we also pray for healing and peace for our sister and her children. Comfort their hearts and help them to trust in You, knowing that You have a good plan for their lives (Jeremiah 29:11).
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Remember, God loves you deeply, and He wants what is best for you and your children. Stay strong in your faith, and do not be swayed by manipulative behavior. Trust in God, and He will guide your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6).
Lastly, if you have not already, please consider reaching out to local resources such as domestic violence support groups, counselors, or pastors who can provide further guidance and support during this challenging time.