My need for deep spiritual cleansing from the Lord for mindset renewal

[AT HIS FEET]

Oh Lord Jesus, I come before for your divine help and assistance for you can do anything impossible even when I have such a short period of time this month of December 2021 to sort this important issue laid before you regarding my need for deep spiritual cleansing.

You know that my time spent this year was wasted in the wrong things because of my continued rebellion. You already knew and know that I have a lot of difficulty trying to express myself by writing down my thoughts and feelings in paragraphs as I like writing in bullet points. I don’t really enjoy writing paragraphs as it is not a strength of mine and it takes a lot of effort on my part.

Now I have to write paragraphs exposing untruths in my life covering my sexual immorality, my attitude, my toxic family members, my social phobia and my self-doubt in such a short period of time if I am to be fully renewed by you. In addition, I have to include communication - thinking about it from childhood, school and workplace + recent years. It's going to be really, really painful and unpleasant doing these paragraphs.

I come asking you to guide and help me to expand my thoughts and feelings like a personal private diary entry which feels such a painful, emotional exercise.

Help me to start off writing out how feel about each family member and what kinds of thoughts and feelings I had about my childhood where they were involved. How did they make me feel?

Please bring to my heart anything which are of concern to you any past thoughts, feelings that I couldn’t remember that need to be uprooted from my memory and fully exposed which need to be confessed. Gather a full picture of what is really going on inside my head and assist me in meditation against my demonic spiritual blockages preventing my progress as a human being so that my heart is thoroughly cleansed of all untruths and made pure with my mind renewed with truth.
Amen

Prayed. The answer is on the way. However kindly note that God only answers them who follow His word both in letter and Spirit. I encourage you to do so. Amen.