Kamebacken
Disciple of Prayer
My name is Emily and I recently found out my boyfriend (named Deston) of a year and four months is cheating on me. His reasoning was that he felt like he had no emotional support, specifically from me. This is true. I have not been there for him at times during the relationship so I feel like I deserved to be cheated on. He was seeking emotional support from a girl he used to date and was best friends with for 6 yrs. He was talking romantically with her (talking about cuddling with her, telling her she's the most beautiful girl, and the only reason why he lives, etc). This girl is toxic for him because she has lied to him multiple times about killing herself. His cheating on me has caused me to not be able to trust anyone anymore (I had horrible trust issues before) and has lowered my self esteem, especially because he was liking sleazy pictures of girls on Instagram and even commented on one. I thought he was only attracted to me because that is what he would tell me. I am heartbroken. I was an atheist but feel as though I am coming to God. I am starting to pray for him when I start to feel anger for him, and wow, do I have a lot of anger for him. He has alcohol issues as well and is starting to go back to alcohol because he feels as though he has lost everything (me) and has ruined everything we had together. He also feels guilty and that he doesn't deserve another chance.
Just please pray that he cuts out that girl from his life, that he comes to the Lord, and realizes that alcohol does not solve problems and that he ultimately gets help for his drinking and anger issues and quits drinking. I will not be with someone who drinks/ has a bad temper. Please also pray for his safety and his depression. Please pray for clarity for me, that I know what to do next in this situation (whether to get back into a relationship with him or stay away from him, etc.). Please also pray for my self esteem and trust issues. Pray that I become closer to the Lord because I am still unsure if I want to go fully into Christianity, or not. Pray for my broken heart. Pray that I have patience and grace towards him. Pray that I treat him how Jesus would treat him. Pray that him and I will go to church together. Pray that we will have a godly relationship if I decide to stay with him. Pray that I will work harder towards being there for him. Pray that I will be a witness to him. Pray that I will be strong. Pray that I will be supportive towards him. Please pray for my anger towards him. Please pray for God's will to be done. Please pray also for anything else you feel should be prayed for. I love this man so much and only want the best for him. Thank you so much.
Just please pray that he cuts out that girl from his life, that he comes to the Lord, and realizes that alcohol does not solve problems and that he ultimately gets help for his drinking and anger issues and quits drinking. I will not be with someone who drinks/ has a bad temper. Please also pray for his safety and his depression. Please pray for clarity for me, that I know what to do next in this situation (whether to get back into a relationship with him or stay away from him, etc.). Please also pray for my self esteem and trust issues. Pray that I become closer to the Lord because I am still unsure if I want to go fully into Christianity, or not. Pray for my broken heart. Pray that I have patience and grace towards him. Pray that I treat him how Jesus would treat him. Pray that him and I will go to church together. Pray that we will have a godly relationship if I decide to stay with him. Pray that I will work harder towards being there for him. Pray that I will be a witness to him. Pray that I will be strong. Pray that I will be supportive towards him. Please pray for my anger towards him. Please pray for God's will to be done. Please pray also for anything else you feel should be prayed for. I love this man so much and only want the best for him. Thank you so much.