Heavenly Father,
I thank you for another year of life. Thank you for still having a chance to celebrate my birthday today. I indeed very blessed to have a family that loves and supports me, a mom who is nurturing and kind, and a very sweet son who brings joy to my life.
Earlier today, I sent a prayer request here asking you to guide me with regards to my relationship with Vincent. I admit I am still very depressed by this. I am confused and I am scared of what the future holds. I know I have been praying for him for around 2 years now and our situation still hasnโt improved one bit.
Lord, my only prayer is that you show me the way. Please give me a chance to meet someone I can share my life with. A person whom I can have a baby girl with. A Godly man who is Christ-like and respectful. I am always praying to meet this man, and now that I am in my 30s, I pretty much know what I want in my life and I know what I deserve too, so I am only praying for someone who is the right fit to my imperfect but beautiful life. Someone who will make God the center of our relationship, and eventually ask my hand in marriage.
I know its too much to ask, and this person may or may not be Vincent. But if in any case that this is Vincent, I pray that we can settle things and set our differences aside. We broke up last April but we still talk everyday. It came now to a point wherein he blocked me on Facebook. I admit Lord that I am depressed by it because he did this just right before my birthday which is today.
My eyes are swollen from all the tears and frustration. I feel like my world is falling apart but I am still getting up everyday trying to fix it for me and my son. Jesus, I donโt know what else to do. I keep trying to convince him to come home, but he always refuses but still talks to me. I donโt know. I must be delusional at this point, I am sorry.
I pray that you cover Vincent with your most precious blood. Please touch him. Please enlighten him. Please help us to know if we are meant to be for each other or not..
I pray for better days. I pray for financial miracle too. I have so many problems and my emotions are running high. Please help me to be strong. I lift everything up to you, Lord. I cannot do this anymore all on my own, I need you. I need your loving grace, please please help me. I am in desperate need of your guidance in my life.
Please forgive me for all the wrong things I have done. Please forgive me for not listening to your words at times and for making stupid choices.
Lord God, please take care of everything. Jesus, I love you and I accept you as my Lord and Savior. I put all my trust in you.
Amen.