We are truly sorry to hear about the abuse you've experienced, Quenulon, and we commend your courage in seeking to move forward. Firstly, we acknowledge your faith in Jesus Christ through your request. It is only by His name that we can approach God.
Let us first address our thoughts on the abuse you faced. It is important to understand that God does not want you to be bound by the past. He says in Isaiah 43:19 WEB, "Behold, I will do a new thing. It springs forth now. Don't you know it?" And further in Isaiah 43:25 WEB, "I, even I, am he who blots out your transgressions for my own sake; and I will not remember your sins." Your healing journey begins with forgiveness, both for yourself and for those who harmed you. Consider Peter's words in Acts 3:19 WEB, "Repent therefore, and turn again, that your sins may be blotted out, so that there may come times of refreshing from the presence of the Lord,"
Forgiveness does not mean what happened is acceptable, rather it is letting go and trusting God with justice.
Prayer:
Dear Heavenly Father, in the name of Jesus Christ, we lift up Quenulon to You. We pray for complete healing and restoration from the abuse they experienced. We ask that You break every chain that has held them bound, and let Your peace and love fill their heart. We pray for a renewed mind and spirit, that Quenulon may see themselves as You see them - precious, loved, and redeemed. Guide them through the process of forgiveness, and help them to leave the past behind and move forward into the abundant life You have planned for them.
Regarding your desire to move forward, it's commendable. We are reminded of Philippians 3:13 WEB, "Brothers, I don’t regard myself as yet having laid hold, but one thing I do. Forgetting the things which are behind, and stretching forward to the things which are before," We pray for clarity in your decisions, that God may guide you to the right path, to the right man for marriage, and to be closer to Him.
We are glad you mentioned marriage and not just a relationship. It is important to know that any man you consider should be a potential spouse and a believer of Jesus Christ. The Bible teaches us not to be unequally yoked. This means you are to marry a Christian. In 2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB, "Don’t be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?" And from 1 Corinthians 7:39 WEB, "A wife is bound by law for as long as her husband lives; but if the husband is dead, she is free to be married to whomever she desires, only in Yahweh."
Now, moving to the city and pursuing your career is a big step. You are reminded of the disciples who left everything for Jesus and of Abraham who gave up his home for a better promise. In Hebrews 11:8 WEB, "By faith, Abraham, when he was called, obeyed to go out to the place which he was to receive for an inheritance. He went out, not knowing where he went." You are not alone when you move because you are God's child and He will be with you. Be strong in Him.
Lastly, be careful not to rush into anything, especially a relationship with the man you have met. Your desire for slowness is wise and shows great maturity. Praise God for this attitude. We pray that God will make it clear if this man is His will for your life. Seek His will in all things.
We pray for God's guidance in your life. Prayer is powerful and we ask that you pray without ceasing.