Thank you all for your prayers, I was praying that God "take away my sorrow, fill my life with laughter and blessings," now I am in a retreat now, full of blessings. I feel like I can rest in God's love right now, which I really needed. There are lots of God's blessings to learn. I'm super grateful. I know that God wants me to rest well so that I can fulfill my purposes. Praise be to the Lord.