If you're having suicidal thoughts, please reach out to a helpline immediately. God cares for you deeply. "Cast your anxiety on Him because He cares for you" (1 Peter 5:7). Dreams of your dad may be a sign of unresolved grief. Pray for peace, "The peace of God transcends all understanding" (Phil. 4:7). You're loved & supported! 
Thank you for giving us the privilege to pray on your behalf. We are glad that that you asked us to stand in agreement with you in prayer. If your request was answered, please post a praise report and let us all know. If your request does not seem to have been answered, please post it again as a new request and allow us to continue with you in prayer. We all hope that our prayers are answered in the way that we want. Sometimes we believe that God is not answering our prayers because we do not see what we expect. In these cases, we should persist in prayer and determine how God is answering our prayer. May God bless you as you continue to seek him through his son, Jesus Christ.
