Lord I can’t take much more of ...

[Anonymous]

Lord I can’t take much more of this. How far are you going to let the devil destroy my life? How far will you let my ex, who still seems to have all control dole out absolute pain and destruction on me, and let her take my children. She wants to move, and wants to take them. Here I am Lord, broken, not feeling good physically, while I’m trying to get back in shape, while my ex is about to take my kids out of town, with her hidden boyfriends family. I tired Lord, instead of some little uplift in my life I am constantly being bombarded with the reminder that I am inadequate and rejected. Every time I try and take a step forward I am being met with constant attack. Talk about one step forward three steps back, this has broken my spirit and all the inner strength I was gaining is just unraveled. I am looking for hope in my future but it has absolutely become clear to me there is none. I have prayed multiple times everyday for now 8 months, for some sort of help, and while I know you have given some peace and been working, I have little to show from if. My wife has not paid mortgage on our house, and it’s ruining my credit and it’s likely I won’t get the profit from that investment, I don’t know how to deal with our taxes because they are controlled by her accountant cause of her business and she hasn’t dealt with that either. Instead of helping her go on vacations and look for 400k houses across the nation, instead of allowing this bombardment of attacks from devil on me, where instead of having a nice weekend, I’m having to take my car in again to try and have it fixed with money I don’t have, how about a blessing my way. I’ve been praying about what you want for my future and you seemed to give me some answers. Well I’m still asking for a huge leg up. I’m asking for some help, to at least clear away some of her hold on my life, meaning money to deal with house, taxes, debts, anything to tie me to her, cleared out, so that our only tie is the kids, that’s it. Lord I’m at the edge of what I can take, I’m tired Lord. Even on the small side, I was looking forward to having a nice weekend. What is going on? No one wants to hang out, my plans for fun are gone. What are you trying to teach me, how are you trying to punish me? It’s the only things I can think of when every single thing I look forward to is stripped away. Sick, car not working, no money to play with, game not working, family going away, can’t go anywhere. I’m confused, confused as I can be. I love you Lord, but do you see? What are your plans? To whither me down until I’m nothing, I feel so thin and worn right now. Please watch over my family and friends, bless them and help them be great. Please protect my children this week as they are away, let no harm come to them and if anyone tries to harm them, please deal with that as I will not be there to protect them. I love you Lord, but I am lost right now.

Please tryv to stand strong, God will support and protect you, have faith and don't stop praying, amen