Anonymous
Beloved of All
I'm supposed to be living but I feel like I'm dying inside. Cant really put into words how Im feeling. So much pain, yet feeling numb. Never would I have imagined my life would be so void and suck so badly. I dread going to sleep and dread more waking up.
Fed up of hoping and praying yet nothing happens. Nothing like loving people and being crapped on for doing so. Having people question ones motives when there isn't anything to question. Just someone being kind and being sized up for doing so.
I know that people doing give a crap about anyone outside their little world. Their groups of friends and their families. Imagine growing up never fitting in and never having friends. Wanting to make friends and never seem to have the right words or thinking of what I should have said when I walk away.
Dealing with major things Im not going to list here. My heart and thoughts have been heavy for too long. Wondering if things will ever get any better and realizing its been the same for an excrutiatingly long period of time. TBH I have no idea why Im posting this. I'll end up being as disappointed as I was before posting it. People are selfish af and so called christians can be worse than atheists and unbelievers. That is a fact I learned long ago. Am about to give up on prayers, God and people in general. Tired as heck of liars and people who pretend to care and dont. If anyone reads this and wants to pray, ask God to do a miracle regarding everything I'm hoping for. I've prayed far too long for all this.
Fed up of hoping and praying yet nothing happens. Nothing like loving people and being crapped on for doing so. Having people question ones motives when there isn't anything to question. Just someone being kind and being sized up for doing so.
I know that people doing give a crap about anyone outside their little world. Their groups of friends and their families. Imagine growing up never fitting in and never having friends. Wanting to make friends and never seem to have the right words or thinking of what I should have said when I walk away.
Dealing with major things Im not going to list here. My heart and thoughts have been heavy for too long. Wondering if things will ever get any better and realizing its been the same for an excrutiatingly long period of time. TBH I have no idea why Im posting this. I'll end up being as disappointed as I was before posting it. People are selfish af and so called christians can be worse than atheists and unbelievers. That is a fact I learned long ago. Am about to give up on prayers, God and people in general. Tired as heck of liars and people who pretend to care and dont. If anyone reads this and wants to pray, ask God to do a miracle regarding everything I'm hoping for. I've prayed far too long for all this.