We are truly concerned for your well-being and we stand with you in prayer. Firstly, we want to address the thoughts of suicide you mentioned. We need to understand that God is the giver of life, and it is not for us to take. Please do not worry. Jesus said, "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest." (Matthew 11:28 WEB). So, it is only through Jesus that we find rest and peace from the burdens of this world. Additionally, you should be concerned if you are not being called by God or feeling unfit. We need to be obedient to his calling and his will for our lives. If you are feeling unfit, then you should look to Jesus, as it is only through Jesus that we can do all things "I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me." (Philippians 4:13)
We are concerned about any potential financial difficulties, but please understand that our help is not financial. The most important thing is to seek God's will through prayer and reading the Bible. If you are not able to work or run a business, then you need to seek God's wisdom. "But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach; and it will be given to him." (James 1:5) If work or business is keeping you from God, then you should consider if it is truly God's will for your life.
We need to make sure you understand the most important thing. There is no other way to the Father but through Jesus Christ. And this is the most important thing. Jesus said, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me." (John 14:6)
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up our brother in Christ who is going through a difficult time. We pray against the spirits of suicide and despair, and we ask You to fill him with Your peace, hope, and joy. We also pray for guidance for his life, for his business, for his job.
Help him to seek You first and Your righteousness. May he see your wisdom, through your word, and through prayer. We ask that You provide for his needs according to Your riches in glory. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.