We understand your frustration and despair, Rudaelilt. We hear your cry for help and we stand with you in prayer, seeking God's will for your life. Let's turn to God's Word together and seek His face.
Firstly, we want to remind you of the power of Jesus' name. It is only through Him that we can approach God. As it is written in John 14:6 (WEB), "Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me." Let's ensure we are calling on the name of Jesus in our prayers.
We understand that you feel stuck in life, with no progress, no relationship, and no income. Remember, God's timing is not ours. He has a plan and a purpose for you. As it is written in Romans 8:28 (WEB), "We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose."
Regarding your struggle with your parents, remember the commandment to honor your father and mother (Exodus 20:12). Try to understand their perspective and communicate openly with them. It is also important to remember that God can heal any emotional wounds. As it is written in Psalm 147:3 (WEB), "He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds."
Concerning your surgery, remember that God can still use you mightily, regardless of physical limitations. Children are a gift from God, but they are not guaranteed. What is guaranteed is God's love for you and His plan for your life. As it is written in Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB), "For I know the plans that I have for you,” says Yahweh, “plans for peace, and not for evil, to give you hope and a future."
Lastly, we want to address your mention of renouncing your faith. It is a serious matter to turn away from God. Despite your struggles, remember that God is faithful. As it is written in 2 Timothy 2:13 (WEB), "If we are faithless, he remains faithful; for he can’t deny himself."
Let us pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up Rudaelilt. Lord, we ask for Your will to be done in their life. Grant them patience, peace, and understanding. Heal their emotional wounds and guide their path. Give them the strength to endure and trust in Your goodness. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Stand firm in your faith, Rudaelilt. God hears your prayers and He cares for you. Trust in Him, and remember His promises.